Driveless

-5th February 2009
-Thursday
-11.53pm

Another day has come to an end. Back in KL currently but I'm still having the new year mood. This year or rather for the past 6 months, I just attended class like a robot, went for tutorials as usual but how much I actually absorbed into my brain is a different issue. I didn't do any assignments and sometimes skipped a few classes. I am lazy this whole term and driveless as well. I have no push and drive to do anything.

Exams are in May and honestly I don't really have much time left but still I feel darn lazy to open the books to study. Sometimes thinking bout the exam fees does scare me...paid RM 4 K plus for it and tuition fees for 1 year is RM 5.5 K. With that in mind, I guess I should really study and not waste that money.
I was happy and contented beginning of last year till my exams as J was always or most of the time by my side. His trips to China and HK usually were 2 to 3 weeks max and he will be with me another 2 to 3 weeks or more before he flies to his next destination. I was happy with that arrangement. My mind was free from missing him and I was happily doing my revision while waiting for his return.

I know I sound pathetic because everything about me revolves around only J...J...and J. It's not really true but I would say my life would just crumble without J. Ever since J started working in NZ, I knew my life and our relationship was going to take a terrible turn. J has never ever stayed in any country for such a long period of time and being girls..like they say girls intuition, I knew that somehow J was going to be there for a very long time and no doubt J mentioned the other day he might need to be in NZ for at least 1 to 2 years. My whole life crashed as soon I heard that. I kept quiet but I was crying. I was in grieve. I am too now as I blog. I don't know how I am going to pull through my exams but I just got to.

Depression

-2nd February 2009
-Monday
-5.03pm

I'm so bored back home in Melaka but hey, I get to save lots by eating at home and not paying for anything when we go out to eat. It just dawned on me today why lately I've been putting on back my weight again is perhaps I'm just sad. For the last six month after J left for NZ, I put on the kilos slowly by slowly.First it was 1 kg then 2 kilos fluctuating between there and now after the NZ trip I lost 2 kilos then now New Year and I weigh myself today and got a shock. I'm 58 kilos. OMG! I used to weigh 51 kilos during my secondary school days and after graduation, I started to put on weight till around 57 kilos. Later, I went on a Youth Exchange Programme to Brazil for 1 year and before I knew it, I came home weighing around 63 kilos. I thought I could loose weight again but somehow the good food in Malaysia made me even fatter till 65 kilos. Occasionally, my weight would fluctuate all the way till 67 kilos. Then, I decided I am not going to live like this forever. I wanted to look good, I wanted to be able to get clothes easier, I wanted to make my bf proud to have a beautiful gf so I got myself into a slimming programme as soon as I got to KL to study.
It was then I slowly shed the kilos and after around 8 months I was weighing 52 kilos and I thought I was the happiest person on earth. I gained self confidence and I could just walk into a shop and getting clothes was much easier. My weight fluctuated to around 54 to 55 kilos and I was still quite happy with it. Then it all started when I had exam stress and J left for NZ my weight would fluctuate up and down. I went for treatment regularly but I know I did not have any more discipline. I was depressed, stressed, sad and just down all the time. Food was my only way of comfort and happiness. After my NZ trip I was like 58.7. I was shocked to the maximum. I went for treatment and came out at the weight of 57.6 kilos. I finally dropped to 57 kilos but who can imagine Chinese New Year was just round the corner. Aiyo, now I dare not even try to weigh myself. I drank the slimming coffee everyday without fail till I got my nose bleed as it is quite heaty. I didn't eat carbo at night and I ate so much fruits and vegetables but still I have no idea how I was able to put on weight. Pathetic !!!!
As soon as I go back to KL , I need to be really on crash diet. I don't want to go back being the old me though J likes me that way better (he said better to hug) but I don't care. I'm doing it for myself.

Hot & Cold

-30th January 2008
-Friday
-3.12 am

I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...

Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak

Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe

Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for

To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul

Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side

These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave

Please don't leave...

A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave

So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel

You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for

You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel

The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel

To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...

by James Tan


J doesn't do this kinda lovey dovey romantic stuff for me anymore :( No more loving smses or messages. After 6 months of the relationship guys usually change. Time flies, it's been 3 years and 4 months and we are still standing strong in this relationship. As J said, all we need is faith..yes faith! However, sometimes the distance is really killing me inside. So, whatever...one thing I would dearly wish for is for time to go back to 3 years and 4 months ago :)





Thanks baby for getting the DKNY perfume and the Ipod touch as my Christmas Pressie. Not forgetting the NZD 500 gift voucher from Max to spend. Love you lots.

You & I both

-28th January 2009
-Wednesday
-2.51pm

I'm bored...seriously bored. 3rd day of new year and I'm bored! Imagine! Fortunately I predicted I would be bored back in Melaka and hence I brought my Lappie home with my maxis 3G broadband. New Year was slightly more excited than usual.

Denise Keller was here with us. Haha. Yes, DENISE KELLER! Please don't be envious. She is my cousin....Her Granny and my granny are sisters. She was filming a documentary on Melaka and also CNY and finding her roots back in Mlk. Her programme will be aired on Discovery Travel roughly end of March on channel 707 on Astro. Pls do watch it. As usual, filming is not easy. Whole family had to pretend sitting around talking, laughing and do the usual tea ceremony. I pity the most is the lion dance troop. The had to literally perform the dance for 3 times. The main guy that was leading the dance and holding the head was sweating profusely. Hey but to compensate we did give them a VERY BIG ANG PAU - RM 280.00. So now I'm a star..glamour konon. Haha.

As usual did the normal family visitation in the afternoon on the first day and night I went out with friends. Did some catching up and stuff & second time konon glamour was I got to shake Melaka Chief Minister's hand - Dato Ali Rustam ( The most corrupted minister in Malaysia)....pls don't sue me for defamation. lol. It's a fact!!!!!

Second day, visited my future MIL. Haha. She cooked lunch for me. 4 dishes somore for just the 2 of us. According to her, James called her and told her when I visit please cook more in order for me to be FATTER. ( Hate that concept). Guys are weird..rather my bf is weird. He seems to like my older self when i was so much fatter. Anyway, back to MIL story. It was so much fun to be there. MIL told me James was such a rascal and mischievous boy while growing up. He used to be so hard headed and naughty. One very interesting conversation between mother and son during James last trip back which MIL told me.

J: Mummy, you don't know my gf very cheong hei ( Long winded) oh..
M: Very good oh! You don't want to listen to mummy so God gave you a cheong hei gf.
J: Oh mummy, so like that la...not siding me also..lol.

When I heard that I burst into laughter. Well, seems MIL likes me very much. Me happy :)Another crucial information found out...James can COOK!! What? He always asked me to cook this cook that for him when he is back and now...haha. I am going to make sure he COOKS for me. *Evil laughter*

Chinese New Year this year just seems different without J around. J is in NZ and V is in Malaysia. To me there are 3 occasions that are not to be missed. 1) Birthday, 2) Christmas & 3) Chinese New Year. Every single occasion represents a different meaning in my heart. Firstly, birthdays are important because is the day you grow 1 year older and I love celebrating it with my close ones. Yes, some ppl do say that it's just another day in a year and age is only a number. Another reason is coz my birthday and J's birthday is only 3 days apart and we have been celebrating every year together for the past 3 years and this year will be our 4th together but I know J won't be able to celebrate with me this year coz he needs to work in NZ. Secondly, Christmas is also the time to celebrate it with close and love ones. We go to church, sing christmas carols and pray together. Thirdly, Chinese New Year is a time where you get to have a gathering with our family and have a wonderful meal together. We talk, laugh, joke and just crap anything. We not only eat , eat and eat, we also show our respect towards elders by going on visitations and of course collecting ANG PAU. *smiles*. I love all these 3 occasions coz it's all surrounded by love and care for one another with love ones. J is not here and it makes a big difference to me. It's a quiet new year without J with me.

Anyway, I've not even blog bout my NZ trip last month. Guess I won't but I will upload a couple of pics here...












This is a very random pic but I simply loved it. It's just like a poster pic or introduction scene from series like The Practice..."Previously on The BAC Entourage".
Our very own version of The Practice...lol

Lousy moments......

-19 November 2008
-Wednesday
-12.40 am

I'm still feeling lousy but of course much better compared to few days back.
Arggggg....how does one get rid of those kinda feelings inside? For sure I know I will never be able to get rid of it 100%. I just feel like chilling at home not doing anything. Lie in the whole day and laze at home. Unfortunately, I can't. Morning need to work then head off for dinner with Virata and gang at Cheras. It's gonna be another long and tiring day....:)
December isn't far off...finally my flight tickets are settled. The thing is I'm flying with Qantas and need to board the plane from Singapore and transit at Melbourne for freaking 10 hours then head off to Auckland. I'm still contemplating if I should actually get out of Melbourne Airport for some sight-seeing...hmmmmm? James-Auckland-Christchurch dieing to see you...Xoxox...
My name...Vera Tay if you say it fast it does sound like Virata actually.
Went clubbing last Sat at this superb club call twenty.one and Virata's friends were like ohh so finally we get to meet the girl who shares the same name as Virata.. *watever*

Shit happenssss....

-17 November 2008
-Monday
- 11.58 pm

When shit happens, no matter how and what we try to untangle the mess, it can never work so easily. As for me, I will take days, weeks, months before I eventually figure what I should do to clear this off my mind. I feel lousy, I feel happy, I feel excited, I feel down, I feel confused......
When I think about it, I feel happy, there is this glow in my face but deep down I doubt myself now. I'm unsure about everything I've plan. I never thought such a thing could happen to me. However, part me of never regretted it.
I can't stop thinking bout it till today. I wake up I ponder about it. I start to think maybe I shouldn't had done it or maybe I should have....I can only say that since stuff happened, we can only make the best out of it now. :)
Conclusion, at least for a moment, I felt different and had that tinge of happiness.
A burden is off my shoulder now....sigh of relieve!!!
LIFE still has to go on. It's difficult but I will pass it with flying colours

Ps: For those who loves watching Gossip Girl, FYI I love Dan Humphrey and Serena...
Certainly can't stand Chuck Bass..:)

Crappy bus service

-16th October 2008
-Thursday
-11.22pm

Exhausted from such a tiring day. Today got really cheated by this stupid bus company named METRO bus. It all started when I decided to take the metro bus to college instead of my usual Rapid KL bus as I was catching the bus from Curve instead of 1U.
First event that shocked me was when I told the bus conductor my destination was KL central , immediately he said RM2.50. I was really shocked. The usual Rapid KL bus only charges RM2.00 for a whole day pass where else Metro's ticket is only Valid for a single trip. Nonetheless, I paid for the ticket without even trying to argue with him. No wonder Metro does not have as many passengers as compared to Rapid KL. Secondly,
on the way towards KL central, I over heard the bus conductor telling another passenger something like that they would bypass KL central's stop all together as it is very jammed during that hour. Next I knew, they took a short cut and stopped at Pasar Seni. I was so mad. Now, they charged me RM2.50 for going to Kl central and instead I had to go down at Pasar Seni and take a LRT to Kl central that cost me RM 1.00. All the hassle and instead of spending the usual RM 2.00 for transportation a day, I ended up spending RM 3.50 to go to college and another RM 2.10 to go home to Kelana Jaya as I was meeting my dad there.
Regarding Metro bus, I was furious. The promised destination was KL central and they dropped me off at Pasar Seni and I paid RM 2.50. That is really a breached of contract. How can they just tell the passengers that just because its jam so they would bypass that stop. They can't just act according to their wimps and fancy. I almost told the conductor off but because I was already running late I gave that a miss. So unreliable. Actually, before I even boarded the bus, I gave a thought whether I wanted to that the risk of taking Metro since they are so not reliable but like I because I was running late and afraid that the Rapid Bus would take some time thats why I took the risk...Never again....
For those who always takes METRO, I suggest you take Rapid KL in future as Metro is not only unreliable but they CHEATED me!!!! I feel so cheated!! Cheh.....

Sluggish & Lazy days

-14th October 2008
-Tuesday
-11.56 am

It's Tuesday & I feel so Saturdayish. Perhaps after taken a rest on Sunday and Monday, this is what happens. Feeling all lazy and dread the thought of going to college for Land and Trust tutorial and then Trust lectures. I have totally full schedule on Tuesdays which starts from 2.15pm to 3.45pm for Land tutorial, 4.00pm to 5.30pm for Trust tutorial, break 1 hour and finally 6.30pm to 9.30pm Trust lectures. What a tiring day ahead! Sigh.....
Just something happy to share. Just confirmed that instead of only going to Auckland,NZ to visit James, we've also planned to celebrate new years at Christchurch.
Well, since my best friends cousin lives over there, they actually invited us to visit the newly wed couple. I just can't wait. At first, I thought I would only be stuck in Auckland, North Island but now my dreams have come true and we will be able to fly in to the South Island as well. Eager for shopping, sigh-seeing, touring and of course spending Christmas and new years with my dear.
Of course before all this, lots of lectures and tutorials to overcome. I'm sure I can do it. Sometimes, just wish I had Hiro Nakamura's powers then I can bring myself to the future, make time go faster and even fly myself to NZ for free...haha.
I wouldn't need an air ticket of course...perhaps I need Mana too!!

Meanigless, lifeless, clueless

-12th October 2008
-Sunday
-12.36pm

It's been 2 months and 10 days since James left for New Zealand. It has not been easy for me either. Times are bad I would say it. I would be emo, I cry, I think, I miss him so much. Sometimes I wonder what I have gotten myself into. Why did I get a bf whose work forces him to travel around the world? Why can't he find a job here? We have gotten into many many arguments regarding this sensitive issue. Well, we all know that its for the better of our future but there will always be a "BUT"...
Let me see, since we dated in 2005 till today, he has traveled to Hong Kong, China & Macau various times for 3 to 4 weeks each trip; Spend 2 months in Germany, France, Turkey, Kuwait, Iran & Togo(not sure if was same trip); 3 months in Spain & now finally in New Zealand for 6 months. He will only be back in End of January 2009 for Chinese New Year. Looks like he has traveled all the continents except for North & South America. Just so you know, he graduated from University of Queesland, Australia so count that continent in too.
Every single time he is away, everyday is like a thousand years. He has only been in NZ for over 2 months but it already felt like half a year. One very thing I have not been asking him everyday when we speak on the phone is "Dear, when will you be coming back?" or "faster come back can or not?" is because I will be flying over to NZ in December with compliments from my baby:). I just can't wait!!!
One thing I would like to highlight is he never seemed to fail me in coming back for special occasions. Last year, he managed to come back in time from HK for CNY 2007 in February and this year CNY 2008 from Spain. What's more romantic is he gave me a surprise by coming back exactly on my birthday this April from China though he was very busy with a project there. There were many times I fell for the surprise when he said he was coming back in a week when actual truth he was at the airport flying back home. In many ways, he has flaws as we are just human beings but most of all since I chose to be with him, I will love him for who he is and not what he is. I was watching A walk to Remember ( I know its super old movie but I only got to watch it now as I managed to download it) just the other day and I came across a line in the movie which caught my attention..." Love is like the wind, we can't see it but we can very well feel it"---something to that effect lah. Awwwww....so romantic. Just love it!!!
Well, as a friend just commented...long distance relationships keeps the heart stronger..just like absence makes the heart grow fonder. Haha...I hope its true.

I need a holie....

-30th August 2008-
-Saturday
12.12 am

So...finally after making all those frantic calls to the college, I eventually got my results via online. 28th August---After watching The Happening on my lappie, I decided that i should sleep early since I have to wake up at 7am for work at 8am. By then, it was around 12.30am almost 1 am. Suddenly...
*Maria...oh beng Maria....*
Me: looks at phone, unfamiliar number, however picks up call.
EM: Vera..our results are out. Can check online ad.
Me: Stunned and shocked...*Speechless*..Where? Where?
EM: Go to email and from there click on the london external link and key in registration number, examination number and birth date. Besides, A & J also passed.
ME: Frantically switching on lappie, connectin to internet is another issue *Curi line neighbour*..Lord Forgive me!!
ME: Ok...will check and let you know later. Bye and thanks
Me: Calls A and congratulated her.
A: "Faster check your results....I wanna know.
Me: Yeah, wait awhile..internet connecting sux..besides, I donno where is my examination docket..
After searching high and low *5 minutes later*..
A: okok....quickly check and key in.
A & ME : *Impatiently waiting for details to upload* swt
As the page loaded, I only managed to see the word PASSED before I even saw the individual results for all 4 subjects.
ME:*Screaming & shouting*....1.15am *sorry Esther(House mate)
A: Congratulations ya..*Both excited*
Talked for awhile then said our good nights.

Overall results I was shocked. I didn't expect to pass my public law paper. Nevertheless, my unexpected results really kicked in after I called my dad. I thought could have done better in CLR instead I only got 43 for it and also my Public. I was disappointed with my CLR results as I really studied what Mr. Rajasingham predicted and as true as it was..the questions really came out and I felt I did well for that paper..Sigh..As for public, I already predicted I would fail but praise the Lord I managed to scrapped through.
Contract has always been my strongest subject yet during the exam I felt otherwise. I wasn't sure and did not have confidence in how I answered the paper. Even so I got 50 marks...ok la. Lastly, Super shocker was criminal. I did answer all 4 questions but it was simply vague. Well, second highest of all papers..I got 48 for it. Crap lah...I know I can never be a Karpal Singh!!
Well, at least be thankful I passed and now looking forward to 1st year. I know its not gonna be easy so I have to really work my ass off as 1st and 2nd year results will be taken into account for my whole degree.
Having a great weekend ahead in peace and relieved...Might be getting my NZ trip end of the year as promise by my baby if I passed my exams as currently he is there on work. Can't simply wait till then...

Turn the left cheek.......

-10th May 2008
-Saturday
-6.28pm

Exams exams exams....Argg just round the corner! Its actually in another 11 days! Been studying a lot but lately I've gone into a "Slumber" mood! I feel exhausted all the time and my migraine keeps coming back. I guess its just pre - examinations syndrome(PES). Haha. I just pray and hope that exams will turn out ok and that I do not have to repeat my papers next year. Gosh, I'm 22 already and if I have to repeat my papers again all the years, I think by the time I'm 26 I won't even be done with my law degree.
Lately, for no particular reason I've this dream of becoming a MP. I guess RPK ( Raja Petra Kamaruddin) has made me realised that one can make a difference in our country.
I really admire and look highly upon him coz this guy doesn't even have a University degree. Nevertheless, his writing skills and sarcastic remarks on his blog are just beyond words to describe. Oh yeah, lately, James has been visiting me quite often as he flies a lots lately to China. He is always on the go. As per James" I live on a suitcase". As for me, I feel like a widow..haha. A lonely Gf as my bf is always not around. Well, I guess if I want to be his gf then I have to accept the fact that this is the nature of his job.
Criminal law keeps ringing in my head...all the cases, Cox V Riley, DPP V Kay, DPP V Newbury & Jones....arggggg! Gosh, I'm going mad! Even in my sleep I can recite them
God, give me strength! Amen

Valentine's Day...D-Day

-18th February 2008
-Monday
-12.11 am

Sorry again to my friends who actually takes interest in my blog for taking so long to come out with another post. I've been struggling to get a stabble internet connection to the extend of actually trying to curi internet connection from my neighbours(shhhhhh). So that's why I'm always slow in posting a new post. Do forgive me ya peeps.

Last week was first week of classes after the CNY holidays. I was really looking forward to it as I thought my Panda will be coming up to celebrate Valentine's Day with me.(BTW, my panda is back from Spain and is now back in our hometown, Melaka) Well, before I came up to KL last Monday, he promised me that he will be up sometime that week. I was so full of excitement as I really relied on his promise. To cut a long story short, he never turned up. I was sad indeed but actually I was disappointed more than anything else. I wouldn't be so disappointed if he just told me straight to the face that he couldn't make it due to reasons blah blah blah but in fact, I had to ask and feel more disappointed myself.

1) I'm a girl who loves to receive flowers on any type of occassion be it Valentine's Day itself:). Unfortunately, I have a bf who thinks that flowers are a waste of money and doesn't see a point in getting them (Minimize cost) for me unless like he says.."if we have extra money" . Well, a stalk of rose on normal days whould just cost around RM3.00 and for that price you get to make your gf happy. Isn't that well worth your money? I didn't ask for like 999 stalks of roses. A stalk will totally make my day.

2)Come to think about it, I've never celebrated Valentine's day with my Panda before. Not even once. For the 3 years we've been together, I can't quite recall what reasons we had but we've always failed to celebrate it. This year of course you can clearly see why he couldn't make it to celebrate with me(work). Last year, was of course work again(Hong Kong)but fortunately what saved his ass was the swaroszki crystal cross pendant he bought for me which cost HKD 600 which means RM 300. The year before last, I seriously can't quite remember.

3)I've tried to convince myself that Valentine's Day is just a date and that we can celebrate it any day as to us couples who are competely in love, Valentine's Day is everyday .."Love is in the air"! But, I just can't come to terms that it is still a a special day where couples go out to celebrate where they have a nice meal, receive flowers and nice presents. Maybe I'm being very idealistic. Perhaps, I've been brainwashed by all those Valentine's Day adverts and propagandas where people think of Valentine's Day as a day to earn money. As a girl, I think any girl would agree with me that it is still a nice feeling to receive something from the one you love. Unfortunately again, I have a very pragmatic bf who says that presents are only given when we have extra money to buy it and if we buy a present when we don't have the extra money, what are we gonna live on for the rest of the month. I see his point but STILL.....can save what right?

So, that was my perfect V-Day. Fortunately, my best friend being single of course made up to my super sad day by treating me to Chilis at 1 Utama. We had a great time. We had a fajita combo and a caesar salad. To end the "Perfect" day, our dessert was strawberry and mash mallows dipped in a chocolate fountain. We were walking around the concourse area and the chocolate exhabition just caught our eye. We just couldn't resist not having them in our mouth. Hehe.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to this week again as my Panda PROMISED to make it up to me by coming up. Coincidently, I have no Criminal class this Wed and Thursday so just as well, I can spend more time with him. I'm just so excited. I just hope he doesn't fail me again.

Insecurities of a girl full of idiosyncrasies

-25th January 2008-
-Saturday
-6.10 pm

Yeah....baby, it's been ages since I last updated. It's been depressing lately without you around. I could be envious of you just because you are in Spain having a good time( Working). The truth is I just miss you alot. Your smile, your laughter, your stupid yet entertaining jokes*Sowie*, your stories about your IT gadgets, your smell, your hugs, your kisses, your touch...everything about you I just miss! Enough said! My rambling, my ranting about you coming back quickly sometimes just gets the better of me. I'm sorry if I kept complaining about you being far away from me and I know without fail you will just calmly tell me that You still love me and try all ways to comfort me during my emo times. Thanks baby!
As I read EJ's blog post, I was terribly reminded of my own funny characteristics and idiosyncrasies. Sometimes, when we gossip about others, there is always this chilling thought that perhaps one day somebody might be doing the same thing to me. Eg: "Oh, I just can't stand the way she speaks with that funny accent"..thank god I have no accent when I speak, or " My God, she looks so fat wearing that lil dress of hers plus I think she just doesn't have any sense of dressing" or worst case scenario, " I can't believe she is so bitchy and ignorant in class". I always believe the saying," Where they is human, there ought to be gossip".
I'm not sure how my friends think about me. I've heard enough of what SOMEBODY in my college tried to do by gossiping and back stabbing me to her bunch of friends who eventually became my good friends. She can say what she wants as they are just a bunch of bull s**t. I don't know what inspired her to do so but who cares as long my friends know that I'm not that sort of person and that I'm sincere in my friendships.
I know I'm not perfect...(seriously, I have so many bad habits and characteristics that you can't even imagine.
My dad's favourite quote goes like this....

" I wonder how James can tolerate you?" or

" If you don't change, James and your friends will eventually leave you"

I've began to change slowly in many ways...thank god for James who patiently thought me and guided me. Baby, I know currently your patient is at low peak but please be patient with me ok. You know I'm not good at controlling and couping with my feelings. I'm like this emotional bug who is so needy all the time. At times, I just question myself how can I be not so clingy and needy. Gosh, I'm a pest in the eyes of my bf!
So, I just can't wait to see my uncle(bf)..sowie nicknamed by my college mates. I've been waiting these four months for your return from Spain and finally my wait has arrived.
Home sweet home baby!!!!*winkz*

*A new beginning*

-21-08-2007
-Tuesday
-3.18pm

Life is such an unpredictable event in the chapter of our daily lives. Things come and go and sometimes we don't even know what might happen next. Our ignorance tends to lead us to our fall and unpredictable things naturally turns to become predictable events. 2 weeks back, I suffered a terrible breakup but yet he patched things back and asked me to give him another chance. Actually we both agreed to work and talk things out in future. Deep down during our talk, I was willing to let everything go and let him make the decision. Suddenly I was having all sorts of feelings eg: fear, disappointment, hurt, angry, sad....generally I was having mix feelings. On one hand, I wasn't willing to let him go but on the other hand, I was afraid of getting hurt again. Promises aren't promises that I used to know anymore. Promises can be broken and all we have to say is a SORRY!
Anyway, for us it's a new beginning, a new love life and a new hair cut for me :) When I had long hair, I always wanted to perm and dye my hair but in the end, I got bored waiting and decided to just cut it off. I got a Rihanna look alike bob hairstyle...the most in hairstyle at the moment. Dyed my hair but didn't come out the way I wanted it to be so I guess the coming month I'll dye once again and this time highlight it also.*grinz* Some people say I look like a young school girl:( but some say I look fresh and nice. I just wanted a changed. That's all!

Vera in Latin means "THE TRUTH"

-02-08-2007-
-Thursday-
-12.09 am

What Vera Tay Jin Mei Means

V is for Virile E is for Enlightened R is for Romantic A is for Articulate T is for Tender A is for Active Y is for Yummy J is for Joyous I is for Intelligent N is for Naive M is for Musical E is for Extraordinary I is for Insane

What Does Your Name Mean?

Found this link while reading a friends blog...Interesting!! If everything stated above were true, I'll be the perfect gf any guy would go after. okok...except the naive and insane part of course. Haha...

From a guys perspective.....

-01-08-2007
-Wednesday-
-11.42pm

My Own Worst Enemy

I was annoyed when she kept calling me everyday, wanting to chat for hours. Yeah, she was persistent alright, she wanted me to spend some time on the phone with her as frequent as possible. I was irritated when she wanted me to keep on SMSing her every now and then, most of all, before I sleep and when I get up in the morning. Those were the times when I was far away from her. It happens every time I'm away from her.

Geez, it seemed so much like a routine to me already. It felt like I was in an office, with the boss wanting to monitor my every move that I have to report on my daily activities, or perhaps clock in and out. It was okay initially, but then it soon became a burden, a bother to me. I didn't like the idea of how she wants me to make it a point to inform her of my wellbeing everyday.

At one point, my patience ran out, and I snapped at her. I began SMSing her lesser and lesser everyday. I didn't even bother calling her, and when she called me, I turned her down. She would complain on why I wasn't SMSing her anymore, and questioned how important she was to me. And at that time, sadly, all I heard was bla bla bla, the end. I was busy with my friends, I hung out every day and night, with my busy schedule of activities.

Somehow I didn't see the need of contacting her that frequent, and I felt that she should think the same way too. I could go on for 3 to 4 days without any conversation with her at all, as I was too busy to even spare a thought about her. I was having so much fun, that she didn't even came across my mind, not even for a second.

I remember how she'd call me when I'm out with my friends, busy chatting and eating with them. She was trying to have a short but lovely conversation with me. But I felt irritated instead.... I chatted with her for a bit and then insisted that we hung up cos I wanted to get back to my friends. Then she begged me to talk just for a litle bit more, just that little bit more, so she can hear my voice and make herself happy. And you know what? I said no.... I said things to her, sentences, words that at that point, I didn't realize how hurtful they were. Yes, I said those...

"Nah, lets just talk tomorrow okay? U call me everyday anyway. Lets just continue tomorrow"

"I'm with my friends now, and I'm in the middle of a conversation with them, so I'd better get back to them okay."

"We can always talk tomorrow okay? Why are u so irritating? Moreover, this is only temporary, and when I get back there, you'll be so sick of me eventually!"

"Look, u're really getting on my nerves now. Dont you have friends as well? Go hang out with them or something okay? I've got my friends here, and it's rude to leave them for too long."

"Would you just hang up and stop bothering me? I need my space here okay, and u're definitely not giving me that. This is the only time I can really spend time with my friends, and when I get back, it'll be only you for the next 6 months!"

"Hey, why dont you do yourself a favor and go get a life man!"

"You want me to SMS you every damn minute or so, and when I don't reply, you'll call me and ask why. I find you very annoying you know that? Dont you have anything better to do?"

And all she could say was

"Dear.... just a little longer please...? I just wanna hear your voice for a while more. It makes me so happy, cos I miss you so much. Let me talk to you for a little longer okay? So that I can sleep tonight. Please dear? Please......"

She'd say those words again and again, begging me to prolong our conversation, even to the point where she broke down and wept pitifully. She cried begging me just to talk to her for a bit more, and yet I kept saying no to her, kept insisting that we hung up. At some point, I began to cut her off just like that. Then she'd call back, countless times..... just for me to reject her calls over and over again. I didn't realize what I've done, all the way, even after we ended.

Then when I got back, I got to know that she had spent a few hundred dollars on her phone bills itself. She paid it all through her meagrely small salary, which she saved up every month from working so hard on weekends. I could not believe what I saw... I could not believe the fact that she was willing to give so much for me, so much just to hear my voice. And what did I do in return???? I fuckin hurt her with my ignorance, with my mean words that I always seem to cleverly compose just to put her down. And what's worse, was that I didn't even realize what I've done!! Fuck !!!!

Over these past few days, things happened, and I spent a lot of time alone, just thinking. I finally realized..... what an asshole I was. What a jerk I was to her. I couldn't believe I said those things. I finally put myself in her shoes, and realized how hurtful it was to hear those words from someone you love so much. I realized a lot of things. I felt what she felt, that's all I can say.

I can now say, that it really stabs you when you miss someone so much, but yet that person don't seem to give a toss about you. Then you end up feeling lost and confused, on whether or not that thing called LOVE and SIGNIFICANCE still exists between you both. You start to question where you stand in their life. You feel like a fresh piece of shit. You feel so damn small, waiting by their feet, but yet they avoid you, cos u're a just a piece of shit anyway.

I know for sure now.... that it cuts so deep that it bleeds when you try so hard to call someone, blowing your phone bills just for the satisfaction of hearing their voice, only to find yourself being shoved away, brushed away. And worse.... being put down, by words that you wished you'd never wanted to hear, especially from them whom you loved so much.

I finally know how it feels.... to be treated like a huge fuckin pile of trash....

I was the biggest jerk ever, I admit, and nothing that I do now could change what I've done. That part of my life is called: Being an Asshole. A complete Asshole. Nothing more.

God, today I've realized a very significant mistake of my past. I've realized that what I did has brought so much pain to someone. I've realized that I kept blaming her for being 'inconvenient' to me, where all along, it was me who needed some correction.

I know I can't change the past..... but now that I'm with another person, I want to change. I wanna make sure she wont ever hear me say those words. I wanna make sure she gets all that I've failed to give in the past relationships.

Dear God... starting today, I promise I'll love her so much more that I can ever love someone, and believe me, that I'm constantly striving to treat her right, trying to be the best for her. And if I'm gonna have to end up falling hard over and over again, then so be it. I expect nothing in return from her.

So could You ever forgive me, for all the wrong things I've done before.....?

Could You?






I am my own worst enemy.



Enough said.....



Enough now.


This was written by a guy friend of mine and I can say that I cried after reading it. I can totally connect to it as I am totally the same as the girl in it and the guy is just like my guy. Well, most guys always feel that we girls are very irritating and blah blah blah. This just shows how much we sacrifice out of love. We sacrifice our time, money and it drains us mentally, physically and emotionally. It will be unfair to say the guys are not doing their part but well, to be honest, most of the time we girls put more effort into a relationship. One thing I'm very proud to say that at least my guy friend actually reflected on what he said and did to his girl. I wish my guy actually gave a thought to everything I did for him. I wished he appreciated and loved me as much as how I showed my love to him. I just hope this will give him a nudge!!! LOL! Truthfully, on the other hand I've began to realized that I actually gave him too much pressure and maybe I treated him like as if he was in a army boot camp and that he must report to me his entire schedule for the day. If my guy friend didn't give the illustration of the part where he felt like if he was being monitored by his boss in the office, It wouldn't have hit me so much on the head that I was exactly like that. I'm so sorry that I actually treated you like this. It never really struck me that I was capable of doing things that were just slowly pushing you away from me. Please forgive me!
My sadness, my madness, I'm my own saviour!!!!

200 pounds beauty....a natural beauty

-31-07-2007-
-Tuesday-
8.45pm

Synopsis

Han-Na is a very big girl with a warm heart. She is also gifted with an unbelievable voice from God. Han-Na has always wanted to be a pop-singer, but due to her appearance, could only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Ami, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.

Also, Han-Na is in love with Ami’s music producer, Sang-June, but it is a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-June’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she could wear such an outfit. She does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Ami appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears……..

One year later, after Han-Na’s extreme makeover (major plastic surgery), Han-Na takes on a new identity and becomes Jenny. Jenny has a near perfect body and face. Nobody recognizes her, even her best friend. Meanwhile, the producer Sang-Jung is searching for a replacement singer for Ami, but can’t find anyone close to the talents of Han-na. Han-na as Jenny, now comes back into the picture and auditions for the job. Sang-Jung is immediately floored by her. She has the absolute beauty and that stunning voice. Soon afterwards, her dream that Sung-June will fall in love with her, is about to come true. Unfortunately, Ami is now jealous of her and feels threatened by her sudden success. She researches into Jenny’s background and comes up with the truth about her true identity.

Will this ruin Jenny’s career?

I love the soundtracks from this movie...eg: All songs that I like are sang by Kim Ah Joong eg: Star(Byul), Maria and I'm a beautiful girl. I can really connect with this movie as Han-na is just like me desperately wanting to loose weight who eventually succeeded in doing so. I have managed to loose quite a bit of weight recently and I feel totally happy and delighted by it. I too wish I had the body of Han-na after her surgery...Super Sexy!

I have uploaded the Music Video of the song star(Byul) by Kim Ah Joong here and I hope you guys will enjoy. It's so touching it made me cry. Attached here is also the Lyrics....

Kim Ah Joong-Star(Byul)
param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi

English Translation

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

My love poem

-28-07-2007-
-Saturday-
-3.06am

I found this Malay poem that I wrote ages ago when I was in Brazil like 3 years ago. I couldn't believe that my Malay then was so good. Haha...I must have been so bored in school that I wrote something like that. So I'm reposting it here again!

Cinta

Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.

Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.

Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.

Today I went clubbing at some Indian club, Moksha in Bangsar with the Rotaractors from RAC Bangsar and RAC Kuala Lumpur. It was really a cultural shock...For the first time I'm entering an Indian club with just Indian people dancing to Indian techno music. Impressive!!! Had a drink of beer and that was it as I had to drive home...
I'm fine and doing just great...thanks for everyones concern. I'll recover in no time. I promise...Don't worry! Thanks Carol for being there.

When you're gone

-27-07-1007
-Friday
-1.10pm

I was listening to this song over and over again for the pass few days. I really liked it without even taking notice of the lyrics. Finally, yesterday the lyrics dawned on me that this is what I'm really going through. The lyrics just keeps repeating inside my head that I'm going off my mind soon. Nevertheless, I'm taking time off and thinking through everything that I've been through. I need a break!


When You're Gone
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Love confessions

-26-07-2007
-Thursday-
-1.41am-

Well, James saw the previous blog entry and was so touched that this was our conversation in MSN.
Vera: Do you know how much I love you?
James: Yes, I know my baby sayang lovessss me soooooo much n I love you much much more you lil baby
James: I wish whn the time is there, I would wanna make you happy all the time and laughing away
James: My baby so cute
James: I always think of you when I do. Thinking of you makes me so alive
Vera: :)
He is always known to be that romantic guy that will write poems and blog entries when going after a girl. Well, at least that was how he managed to go after me. Hahaha! I recalled when he was chasing after me, he used to always expressed all his feelings through his blog entries or even writing sweet testimonials in friendster! Therefore, I will put up something like his best poems n testimonials...enjoy, have fun and be filled with emotions ya and lastly be touched by it!

First testi after first meet up
=.=" Lame stuff ? The words are kinda deep tho... It can mean one or another kie... We can yada yada yada from sunrise till sunset but we'll never realise it flies so fast. Meetin u for the first time is like knowing u for years back. Yeah u don't look like i would imagine u to be haha. I'll always have the first step towards bullying u. And yeah i remembered how ur aunt 'perli-ed' u for not introducing me hah... And yeah ur grandma... Told u SO !!! Haha... Well ur personality is so 'click' till i dunno where to begin or end. Words can't describe what we've indulged into and will never. I'm so touched with ur passion into Christ and ur 'International Action' thingy... Bout me and my inner stuff ? That's new :D Without u to spark up something, i won't think i'll even shine kie. It takes two to start up something :D Well space is kinda running out so i'll add up when i see fit it kie... Missing u too... HuGgIeS... =^.^=

Last testimonial so far....
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

Well, there are supposed to me more testimonials written to me inside friendster but I can't locate it so never mind about it.

Poems written by my lovely James
Friends and lover...

Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult.

1.Love On The Internet

Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.

But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.

But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.

It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.

My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."

It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.

When two people communicate, love can happen anywhere, anytime, and often unexpectedly. The Internet only opens a new setting for an old drama. However, whenever, or wherever people get together, love will find a way. It found me and could not be denied.


2.Emotions...

I was inspired to write this poem when i sms-ed to a friend that really means a lot to me although we knew each other recently. She gives me the feelings inside that just spark my desire to write. I can't describe the feelings that came over me. So, i released them and express myself in this poem...

Blush...
You always make me blush
The tingling sensation that flows throughout my cheeks
As you flatter me with the sweet words you speak

Gasp...
Your touch; your embrace
They send goose bumps down my spine
So chilling it makes it hard to breathe

Love...
The love you express to me
And all the love that you give to me
I know now what I live for

To feel you
To hold you
To kiss your lips and
To try my best to reach your soul

Never wanting to be away from you
To let go of your body
To let your hand separate from my grasp
How I long to have you by my side

These are the moments
When time should have no existence
Where it should never end and
Bring to reality you have to leave

Please don't leave...

A warm kiss goodbye
A cool spring breeze
A tear from my eye
The time has come that I must leave

So alone now
I know I'm still in your heart
"Only a phone call away" I say to myself
To ease the loneliness I feel

You complete me
You make me whole
You're my other half
You're the happiness I've waited for

You chase away my cloudy days
You put a twinkle in my darkest nights
All these days I've spent with you
I still don't know how to express the
emotions I feel

The only words that come to mind
Are words so commonly used
I want them to be unique
To release everything I feel

To me, they aren't enough
But yet, they'll have to do...

I don't know why but from time to time I will always look back at these touching and passionate poems. I just love reading it and indulging myself with these love notes. James, I love you always. Without you coming to my life, I won't be as complete like now. You just feel my days with laughter, joy and happiness. I'm just so thankful to God for sending you to me. I'm just so happy........

Princess and her knight in shinning armour

-24-07-2007-
-Monday-
-11.21am-

3 years and 3 months ago, girl met boy online while chatting on IRC overseas...boy always made girl laughed. Girl felt that boy was so funny and a very nice and friendly guy.
Girl was lonely so girl always chatted in IRC with all her friends back home. Girl added boy in her MSN contacts and from then they kept in touch off and on. Both of them never met before but only through pictures they knew of each other. Time passed and after 1 year girl came back to her own country and from time to time boy would message her and see how girl was. They still never met up due to boy working in another state while girl was in their hometown. All this while, girl only treated boy as a friend. After 1 and a half years of communicating through MSN or sms, they decided to meet up as boy was back in their hometown.
Boy came to girl's house to pick her up that very night...it was a Saturday night, girl was feeling anxious as well as excited while dressing up but was happy that they finally had a chance to meet up. Boy arrived and girl got on the car, girl was surprisingly chatty and immediately clicked on well with boy. They spend every minute of the night chatting and getting to know each other better. Sparks flew and girl started to have a crush on boy without knowing and realizing it. Boy also had the same feeling but repressed it.
Boy came to girl's school every single day after that Saturday and they would have lunch together and would just sit down and yarn and yarn so much till sun set and still wouldn't want to go home. Girl was afraid to have any commitments with boy even though it seemed that boy made the first move to pursue girl. Occasionally, boy would send some lovey dovey messages but girl hesitated at first but one day when girl woke up from sleep, she realized too how much she was in love with boy. She messaged boy to declare her love for him and boy responded in the same manner too.
So, on the 22nd September, boy asked girl to be his girlfriend. Girl in a shy manner asked boy if he was very sure and if he was willing to wait for her because she was till in school. Guy with a very sure and positive manner gazed into girl's eyes and reassured girl that no matter how long it took he would wait for her and be by her side forever. So, from then on, it was no more boy and girl instead they were a couple and a perfect one too. It was known as [V][J] the perfect match.
Finally, girl became the princess she always wanted to be..the girl that is loved so much, the joy and happiness that someone can give her, mostly, the emotional security that she needs. Ever since then, boy became princesses knight in shinning armour. Even though occasionally they would have arguments and fights..well which relationship doesn't face difficulties, they would patch things up and be that happy and awesome couple that everyone envies *winkz*!
Today, princess and her knight in shinning armour celebrates 1 year, 10 months and 2 days being together with sad and happy moments. Gosh, time really flies and we've been together for nearly 2 years and it just seems like yesterday! I love my darling. There's no one else like him. Never found anyone so compatible, and so adorable and the most caring soul in the world. I know he loves me a lot. I've never "belonged" anywhere else. Here I am, Vera[V](Princess) dedicates my love to my dearest boyfriend, James[J](knight in shinning armour) with this song here. Darling, enjoy with all your love and hope that we may be together till eternity. Till then, I love my James!

Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love


Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever

English Translation

In your final kiss
flavor of tabacco i could taste
a bitter and painful smell
about this time tomorrow

i wonder where you'll be at
i wonder who you'll be thinking of

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

The frozen time
is about to start
but there are things that i do not want to forget
about this time tomorrow

i know i will be crying
i probably will also be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
because it is forever only for you
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Now it is still a sad love song
until i can sing a new one

You are always gonna be my love
even if someday you fall in love with someone else
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are alwaya gonna be the one
it is still a sad love song
now and forever

Life has to go on

-27th January 2007-
-Saturday
-12.52 am

Dear God,
I have been feeling very down recently. Please cheer me up and make me look things on the brighter side. Please make me stronger. I don't seem to get everything I want at times and I feel so disappointed. Thank you always for being there with me through my hardest times of my life. Encourage me daily so I can pull through.
Thank you and I love you!

Amen!

Vera


EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU

I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

ps: Was listening to this sound on windows media player and just thought that it's a
very nice and touching song. Hope you all agree with me also.

KL, here I come!

-22nd January 2007-
-Monday-
-11.55 pm

20 years of my life have just gone by in a blink of an eye! I cant believe that I will be turning 21 in less than 3 months. At this turning point of my life, lots of decision making will have to be done etc: which college? what degree? where to stay? By doing so, I've decided to enroll myself at Brickfields Asia College for the June intake to pursue a LLB University of London external degree. Law is not an easy subject as it requires lots of reading up and memorizing various court cases. I'm determined to push myself to meet the standards of being a law student and also not to disappoint the hopes my parents have for me! As for now, I got a job at Thank God It's Friday (TGIF) 1 Utama shopping centre in KL and will be starting this Thursday before I start my course in June. The thought of starting my course so early really makes me think twice since I just completed my STPM last December. I guess I deserve a break right?

Last Friday, 9 Rotaractors including me went down to Singapore to attend the Rotaract District Conference from 19-21 January. It was held at a girl guides camp site-Camp Christine at Lim Chu Kang area. The journey down from Melaka would usually take around 3 and a half to 4 hours. Guess it took us how long? I think you would be shock to hear that we got there within 2 and a half hours. 2 cars drove up in which Yik Chuang, our Immediate Past president and Eugene, current Community Service Director so kindly volunteered to drive everyone there. These Formula 1 drivers were going at around 170 km/h but because they had super cars -volvo with turbo engine and Honda Accord, the journey went on so smoothly.

Camp was fun as the team was Rotaract Survivor and we got to know so many other Rotaractors within our district eg: Malaysia,Singapore and Brunei.

Rotaract District Conference opening ceremony ala "Survivor" style

Games, lessons, fellowship, singing was everything about fun. There was some emotional moments while Zack, District Rotaract Representative was giving his speech. Actually there's lots to write so I will just let my pictures do the talking. Memories like these will last a century!

Survivor Cooking-Roasted chicken,lemang aka Bamboo rice and eggs

Our chicken turned out semi cooked only as it was more of a smoked chicken. Our fire wasn't strong enough..how sad!Nevertheless, our bamboo rice and eggs turned out well cooked. The technique for cooking the egg is to wrap the eggs with at least 1 cm of mud or soil then only you will get a hard boil egg. If the mud is not thick enough, the egg will explode anytime.

My team---Orang Laut(Back row L-R):Fay, Wei Yun, Dawn, Winnie and me
(Front row L-R): Sorensen, Benedict, Picasso and Wei Siong

"Eugene in orange as Botak the Batik man"--Go RAC Kota Melaka!

The winner Of the Rotaract Soul survivor goes to the "Batik" Group......

The contingent from RAC Kota Melaka which consist of 7 members and 2 guest

Finale!!!! On that faithful Sunday, we took our photographs, said our goodbyes and left for Melaka. It only took us 2 and a half hours to get back to Melaka...see like I told you!

Yes....no uniforms and no Mr Siew.

-14th December 2006-
-Thursday-
-4.32pm-

Finally my STPM and my Form 6 life is over...I couldn't be happier than this. No more those horrible looking school uniforms in my entire life. 7th December 2006 was the last day I wore it and yeah I was just glad that my school life is finally over. So to speak, it wasn't just about the uniforms or being look upon as a school girl just because you say you are in Form 6 aka 20 years old...ehem! It wasn't about the school either as I grew to like it...let me say for the Interact Club, friends and of course for certain teachers but NOT ALL.

Let me tell you....there are just certain teachers in school that are just nerve wrecking. Mr Siew being the ever so "KIND" AND "NICE" discipline teacher is always heard shouting on the speaker every single morning as we line up for the morning assembly. His famous lines will be something like :" Boy, why are you shaking and moving? Can't you keep still and quiet? Didn't you take your medicine today?" or :"Girl, shut up or else I will call your family. I know you can't stop talking to your friends as you lack your family's love you so are finding it in school"

He is just totally absurd to the maximum at times. I really admire the courage that my friend had when he told Mr Siew off. After hearing that, my heart was delighted!

For now, I'm so free but I'm planning to work in KL in January. Next week I will be going to Penang on the 20th - 24th December and definitely will be back in time for Christmas eve Service in Church.

My resolution...: Loose as much weight as I can! Yeah! haha

Great memories that will stay on forever!

-23/06/2006
-Friday
-6.25 pm


I've been so super busy lately running here and there...School, Interact, Rotaract, friends, studies..my goodness the list goes on and on[ "on and on and on" reminds me of Jack Johnson's song].Anyway, not to long ago, Rotary organised an annual Interact World Understanding Day Celebrations that took place at SMK Notre Dame Convent with participation by 5 Interact Clubs from SMK Canossa Convent (Morocco), Gajah Berang (Norway), Katolik (Myanmar), Notre Dame Convent (Spain) and SMKJ Tinggi Cina (Turkey). Due to their concern over the mid-year examinations for their students, the Interact Club of SMK Gaffar Baba was sadly, unable to participate in the project. This project was jointly sponsored by R.C. Kota Melaka and A'Famosa to help Interactors to appreciate international peace and harmony as part of the development of our youths. It was really fun that night but honestly, I was totally down to my feet as the preparation for this Competition almost killed me off. Fortunately, my ever supporting W.U Director, Board of Directors, members and dear ones pulled me through.
We actually had not much time to prepare as we were having our exams and the last minute decition to continue with this competition after we pulled out due to certain reasons months ago. Nevertheless, it was a really worthwhile project as I could see my members having so much fun and the glow in their faces just made me feel satisfied with what we put in towards this competition. I guess it was an eye opener for my members as it was the first time for many of them to participated in these kind of competition. For me, it was exciting but I'm used to it as this year was my 6th year taking part in this W.U competiton.The event was full of drama with an exciting and colourful concert programme put up by the participating Interact Clubs, featuring an item from each of their representative country. We witnessed a tale of love from ancient Morocco to a terror Norwegian Viking raid, a Myanmarese wedding to comic bull-fights in Spain and to a bloody ancient battle at Troy. We had lots of mouth watering food as it was a buffet and around 250 students and guess turned up...not even my teacher advisor gave it a miss. Finally, the crucial time arrived, my heart was uncertain about our victory as the whole stage performance on Norway was such a last minute thing and to think about it, we were rather nervous! For the stage concert event, runner-up was SMK Katolik who won RM150 with their Myanmarese wedding and the winner's prize of RM300 went to..... SMK Gajah Berang for their Viking raid and "snap-shots" of Norway! What? I was so shocked and surprised as to what was announced! My W.U Director was literally pulling me up stage to collect the prize money... I heart was totally filled with joy and all I could see and hear were my members cheering and dancing with joy! I was indeed dumb founded.
It was a most successful project, full of excitement and fun and to boot, a free buffet dinner for over 250 Interactors and their respective Teacher-Advisers, Rotarians and guests to celebrate World Understanding Day!

Songs to fill me in...

PETERPAN-MUNGKIN NANTI
Sahajaku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Reff:
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Bridge:
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

Donno why lately this song has been runnin through my head day and night. Maybe it's because this song is currently the number 1 song in town and everyone in school is singing it. You can practicaly hear ppl playing in on their guitar, in the malls and even on the net. Well, I somehow downloaded this song and ever since been stucked with it...It's a very meaningfull song and if I could, I would have put the video clip here but I seriously can't find the video codes for it..sigh!!!

Chinese New Year.....

-21st February 2006-
-Tuesday
-4.04 pm


New year has been over for a week now but it was really fun (I guess)..haha! The first 3 days of New Year was really tiring as I was Mak Minah( Driver) for my sis to go round visiting as she DOES NOT DRIVE!
(My little cute bro who is only 10 years old)

Yeah...so this is my sis(look left) with me during New Year's Eve dinner. So who looks older? Me or her? hahaha..She is 28 this year but doesn't look it right? Anyway, everytime New Year comes, first thing we look forward to is alwayz the ANG PAO (RED PACKET that contains money). As growing up, children would be children and everytime someone gives me an ANG PAO, I would first thing open it up to see how much I got. This year I collected bout RM 300 and well...it wasn't bad considering the bad economic situation that everyone are facing. I'm happy at least!!! :)
Carol, shea ling and I visited Suet Yin at her home on the 4th day of New Year just to catch up each other and to yadayada as usual. A BBQ party was also held at a friend's house and it was great fun. We were doing all sorts of crazy stuff that night like taking a hair dryer to keep the charcoal burning, barbequeing banana and chocolate( It really tasted awesome) and etc! Yin, Alicia and I were the only girls and it really takes effort to satisfy those guys man..sigh.. Besides
scrumptious chicken wings, different types of sausages, fish balls, taukee, potatoes and fruit cocktail juice specially made by Alicia, the important and mouth watering dish of the day was the YEESANG..It's a dish specially eaten by the Chinese and it will bring good luck and longevity. Well, I enjoyed my New Year as it was my first in two years now... since last year I was in Brazil. I hope you did enjoyed yours?

Happy New Year..2006 here we come!

-28th December 2005
-Wednesday
-6.49 pm

Wow! That was fast!! Christmas just passed me with a wooshhh and after this, the year is gonna end very fast!! Can't imagine that It's been 9 months since I came back from Brazil...Being back in school(Form 6), joining Rotaract, being Interact President and meeting friends that I've not seen in ages has definitely changed my whole life. Life has been quite good to me but above all is GOD that I should be grateful and thankful to. Well, this Christmas was a blast and it also brought back good Christmas memories I had in Brazil. Really Miss my host family so much.
X'mas eve dinner was at home with our menu : Chicken Chop served with boiled carrots, cucumber and of course my aunts famous potato salad and Dessert was Jelly served with mix fruits from the can. Jelly didn't turn out so well cause the chef was a lousy one( ME)..haha.Dad and granny didn't join in for dinner as they had to attend one of our relatives daughter's wedding dinner. .Picture from (L-R):Lil cuz, Sister,Me;Uncle,aunt and my nanny since I was born.After such a delicious dinner, sis and I rushed to get ready for X'mas eve 10.30 pm church service at Wesley Church. Met JInWang there and I decided to sit with him while sis catch up with some old friends! Felt bad leaving the service half way through since Suet Yin called to go Pure Bar. I had to since she was picking me up if not I won't have any transport there. I really wanted to go to some place like Friends Cafe but because James, Takara, Alicia, Suet Yin were all in Pure so I had to obliged! Sigh..I'm not really a clubber so being upstairs Pure looking at them dancing and drinking made me felt really bored..I'm the type of person that prefers chilling out at some place and have a chat over coffee. But in the end, It's all about the fellowship( Yeah fellowship in a club?)Met JinWang later at Pure and we were supposed to go Yamcha but halfway I was too tired so after sending me home poor guy went to eat alone. Anyway,thanks dude for taking me all the way home!!(Picture below is taken at church with JinWang).
Since sis doesn't come home that often from KL so we yadayadayada till 4 plus in the morning.. Next day, we actually planned to go to church but ended up sleeping in till bout 11 plus..felt so bad coz I promised JinWang I'll be there as it was his brother's baptism! So, lunch was at friend's open house! At Night we had a X'mas Dinner at home too but this time with roast turkey,lamb and pork,homemade seafood soup, buttered potatoes and finally cheese cake for dessert!:)
The whole family including my cousin's gf were present and it was such a memorable X'mas dinner eventhought granny and aunt's family aren't Christians!Gosh..I think after this Christmas season I must seriously think of going on a DIET!! Been eating so much and I don't even know if I still fit into my school uniform lol! The following day went out with Caroline and Shereena to Friends Cafe. As usual, we girls yadayadayada,talked and laugh soooo loud till everyone could here us. It was just so nice to catch up with them.
Exchanged presents, took stupid and funny pictures while waiting for Carol's AMERICAN burger that took like 40 minutes to come! Must complaint to FRIENDS man.. luckily it tasted quite good if not.... I ordered some drink which I can't remember the name..sounded like some Japanese name.Well, it was a mixture of coffee late(I think so), vanilla ice-cream and bananas! It was very creamy..Oopppss fattening but well delicious!!! I think that's about it lah...Wishing everyone a Happy New Year and may 2006 be a wonderful year and may good things be ahead of everyone!!! Take care!

A Walk To Remember

-1st December 2005
-Thursday
-2.21 pm


(L-R): Lilian, me and Suet Yin

Today is Lilian's 19th Birthday!!!! Just wanted to blog something bout her and how we've come to be good friends since school days. It all started when she joined the Interact Club of MGSS when we were in Form 1. I've always thought of her as non other than my classmate in 1A and also knew she JUST existed in the Interact Club. The years went by and by Form 3, we were separated as I was demoted to 3B and she still remained in 3A. I still can remember clearly that year we took part in our Interact International Understanding Competition (IU Day) which is known now as the World Understanding Day (WU Day). We were representing England and our main stage show was the Ascot(where English women were all dress in their Sunday best to witness the horse racing competition)and the singing of the English national anthem "God Save the Queen". Lilian, played a young gentleman in the stage show and it was a marvelous show eventhough we didn't win that year which to me was just unfair! Form 4 came and she was elected as the Secretary of the Interact Club and I was the Community Service Director. Since then, we've become closer than usual as we always worked closely during club activities,projects and competitions. I will never forget those great memories when we took part in the IU day the following 2 years. I really had great fun during the year when we were representing Tanzania. Lilian was an African warrior and I was a village girl. The whole show was amazing and as expected we won! That was the best year among our 5 years. In 2003, our last year since we were in Form 5, we were representing France and guess what? Lilian was 1 of our greatest Can-can dancer. I wish I had pics to post here as all the pictures are in the normal printed type.
That year was also something to remember and to never forget. It was the year Lilian accepted the Lord and I was really happy for her. Our friendship blossomed and till today I'm forever grateful to this friendship that turned out to be a awesome one. Interact has brought many friendships to higher levels and I always believe that "Fellowship brings friendship"!!!Thank you Lilian for your kindness and care towards me all these years.
Let's take another gorgeous pic of Lilian..I've alwiz knew she was a star from the start esp. when she has the looks..Pretty right? I'm so jealous for her sometimes as I'll never be as thin and petty as her.Hehehe... Anyway, u take care and have a awesome birthday today ok? Huggies and kisses.
Ps:// I took this pic from her friendster..hehehe.

What Kinda Seducer are you???/ What Kinda Kisser are you??

-26th November 2005
-Monday
-4.31 pm

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Bored to tears!!!

-12th November 2005-
-Saturday
-6.47 pm

Nothing much to say except that today has a been a terrible and horrible day!! The holidays started today but well it still doesn't seem like any holiday mood to me! It's Saturday and I'm doing nothing except been on9 the whole day doing lame and stupid stuff. I'm just so bored....argggggghhhh! People alwiz say, you don't alwiz get what you want. This is how I'm feeling exactly right now. I'm 19 going on 20 and sometimes ppl especially my dada still treats me as if I'm still some small girl! Parents sometimes should learn how to let go or loosen up abit in their relationship with their children. I just donno...I'm just feelin very moody currently and wish i could just talk and be with someone *winkz*! I need a person to talk to and where are you?????? Is as though my world has just fallen apart. My broad smile on my face doesn't alwiz mean I'm ok you know? So don't judge a book by it's cover. I may be happy but under my skin ......sigh!!! Life can be difficult at times!

That's just the way of life.....

s-2nd November 2005
-Thursday
-11.32 pm

Day in day out I've been just pottering round the house doing nothing! Sigh...so bored ar! Damn, I'm in Kl now!! Shouldn't it be more fun than to be in Melaka? Wow, those shopping, yummy food, nice places, meeting up with friends...etc. Shouldn't it be fun and entertaining? I used to think so too till I actually found somethin more worthy of my time in Melaka! Somethin that made me realize that ermm...well, Melaka isn't a bad place to live in after all..hahahha! Worst thing of all is I'm so sick now...wish I could hug and cuddle someone to sleep *winkz*. After Raya holidays, I still have to go back to school for 3 days and damn it...ppl are all enjoying their holidays already but ME? I still have to suffer 3 more days.Sigh! Wish life could be just so much easier..No Stress and No worries!! Wish someone could just kidnap me and never return me home..sobz sobz!!! Wanna run away from real life or rather i would say dissapear from this terrible world!! Being sick is no joke esp. when someone else has to share ur pain and fall sick as well too.. Feel so bad bout everything that happened yesterday...I'm so sorry!! Hope you forgive me!
Missing everyone back in Melaka..Take care friends! Cheers

Sonnet 18

Sonnet 18

Shall I compare you to a summer's day?
You are more lovely and more moderate:
Harsh winds disturb the delicate buds of May,
and summer doesn’t last long enough.
Sometimes the sun is too hot,
and its golden face is often dimmed by clouds.
All beautiful things eventually become less beautiful,
either by the experiences of life or by the passing of time.
But your eternal beauty won’t fade,
nor lose any of its quality.
And you will never die,
as you will live on in my enduring poetry.
As long as there are people still alive to read poems,
this sonnet will live, and you will live in it.

*missing you already*...

Love or Infatuation*winkZ*

-1st November 2005
-Tuesday
-3.39 pm

Love or Infatuation

Infatuation is instant desire. It is one set of glands calling to another. Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows - one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity.

You are excited and eager but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely, It might spoil the dream.

Love is quiet understanding and the mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Miles do not separate you. You want him nearer. But near or far, you know he is yours and you can wait.

Infatuation says," We must get married right away. I can't risk losing you."

Love says," Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence.

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. If you are honest, you will admit it is difficult to be in one another's company unless you are sure it will end in intimacy. Love is maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When he's away, you wonder if he's cheating. Sometimes you check.

Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. He feels that trust, and it makes him even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later, but love never will.

Love is an upper. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before.

I Love you whoever is reading this.....

Life's so Unpredictable!!!

-31st August 2005
-Thursday
-6.10 pm

"Just Want You To Know"

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

Strangers to Friends!!!

-28 August 2005
-Sunday
-5.40 pm


Last day of school holidays....darn bored! Fortunately, 2 memorable things happened within the same week to me.Isn't that wicked? Sometimes, we always say that things happens at times we never expect it..Thats exactly what occurred to me! I've known 2 cool dudes(Gerald and James)for quite some time, about 1 and a half years but the funny thing is, would u believe it that I actually never met them before in my life? Yeah, weird isn't it? Anyway, just by coincidence, 1 of them(Gerald) is studying in MMU so out of the blue, Andrew just invites me to their MMU CF last Tuesday! So, there I went! So the scene goes like this, I ask Sandra(another friend) whether she knew who Gerald was? she went to him and says "Hey, Gerald do you know someone call Vera?" and he goes "Yeah, we knew each other through IRC but have never seen each other." All of a sudden, Andrew shouts across the hall " Vera, this is my friend CP". The amazed Gerald turns his head to my direction and starts getting up from his seat and walked towards me. We both just laugh it off by saying " what a place to finally meet"..hahaha. WE and the whole gang went for mamaking later that night and we had fun..especially coining up a nickname for him!Gerald to JiaLat..hahahah
James...James...can also consider as my cool, funny and weirdo kor kor lah! We've been smsing each other quite often but I'll always wonder when will the day come that I'll eventually meet him. Yesterday we finally got together n wow..we really got on like a house on fire.Today also invited him to Gateway Church and man it was wicked..Although it wasnt long before we had to part but it was still nice getting to know that no matter where u are, you'll always have a dear friend like JAMES!Cheers. Willl be missing ya!

Moments like this.......

-06-06-2005
-Monday
-1.55 pm

I'm in KL now!!!!! What? Again? Yeah, the truth is ever since I came back from Brazil I've been going up to KL quite often since Malacca will forever remain a "DEAD TOWN" and also coz I needed to visit some relatives and friends that I've not seen for AGES..1Year and since I'm in KL, might as well take the opportunity to SHOP la...man...SHOP la!!! This time round it's my 6th time here within 2 months..WOW! I can't believe that.At least, I have a good reason for being here..well quite lame reason lah.Actually, my aunt asked me to come down from Malacca just to Jaga Rumah(Look after her house) since she and her family are going on a cruise holiday from Singapore,Penang,Phuket and back. Looks like I'm the security officer in charge of her house..*YaHOO**I've got the whole entire house to myself and the maid only since my sis is working in the afternoons and will only be at home during the nights! "Let's get the party started in here"!!!hahahahaha. I jolly good make full use of her home*wink*...my aunt will faint when she returns this Wednesday!!!Muahahahaha.
Eh...I'm a good girl k? Do you really believe that I'll turn my aunts house upside down? No of course!!! Was just pulling your leg..........As usual attended church,DUMC(Damansara Utama Methodist Church) with my sis yesterday morning and I'm sure you must be thinking man..a METHODIST CHURCH??? Praise and Worship must be very lame and stuff but I assure you that this church is no ordinary Methodist Church!!! It's worship is just superb and basically just like any other charismatic church where you see ppl dancing and jumping during worship and the singers and dancers are just filled with the holy spirit and have the *Ooom* for GOD! Even the music instruments are so sophisticated!! It's always fun going there for services*grin*!
Came back after lunch and guess what?I dropped of to dreamland at about 3.30 pm and didnt wake up until about 5.30 pm and that's when my sis came back from her church meeting.
Eric, 1 of my sister's church friend and also my so called MSN messenger chat friend picked us up at about 10 pm to go out for an ice-cream. To his *horror*, Amirul,Jaja and Jeremy were coming along so everybody ended up at McD, The Curve . It just felt so good meeting up with Amirul and gang again after soooo long and also finally meeting up with ERIC aka "Sith Lord"..hahaha. This guy here is just way damn hilarious,witty,funny and whatever it is don't ever argue with him coz his vocab is too "Powderful" for even us as normal human beings to keep up with him!!! I seriously enjoyed yesterday's moments with Eric and gf,Amirul and gf;Jaja,Jeremy,Lionel and sis!!! Can't imagine 2 different age groups of friends could just blend in so well...Amirul& gang and I are from the 19,20 age group and Eric& gang and sis from the Young adults;26-29 group. Come to think about it, we were the only group at McD making the most noice and fortunately we were not ask to leave or kick out by the management*sigh*!!
So I guess that's about all for the day...going out with Danial later!!Tchau

Which road will we eventually take?

-13-04-2005
-Wednesday
-2.27 am




Come to think about it, the effect on this slogan is just remarkable!!! Life is a journey of different,different roads and as some ppl put it.."Life is like a roller coster" n we cannot predict what's gonna happend in the future but only GOD! I still remember one poem I did in Form 5 SPM, The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost and it talks about a traveller deciding which road to take at a fork road..the road less travelled or the road more travelled, we soon find that he chooses the road less travelled. Who KNows, I might be like him taking the road less travelled in life and nobody can say I'm wrong just becoz I decided to make that difficult decision!! Where do go from here....? life is all about making decisions and sometimes being human, we tend to make mistakes and yet God being so forgiving still forgives us entirely of all the sin we did...THat's how wonderful our Lord Father is!WEll, I just wanted to show this part of a testi what my friend wrote for me in friendster:--
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>V ~ Vivacious<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>E ~ Elegant<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>R ~ Remarkable<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>A ~ Appealing<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Life isn't all that great after all!!!!

-12-04-2005
-Wednesday
-2.19 am

After carrying that burden for 3 weeks, I've decided to let it all out!! Sometimes things are just better out than keeping it inside oneself!!! I've always felt better sharing it with my guy friends that trully and really understands me than just telling it to any Tom,Dick and Harry. We are human and we do have weaknesses...so what is so wrong in just liking HIM? I do blame myself sometimes for liking him coz it has cause me hurts and made me suffer, but after all who ever said liking a person was easy! WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY GOD? HOnestly, HE has been such a dear to me,treating me like his baby princess, calling me from time to time and also smsing me but why on earth did I REJECT HIM? WHY? WHY? WHY? Eventhough he still calls me from time to time and knowing that the feelings I have for HIM wouldn't fate off just so easily, I still soften my heart and accept his calls!!! After all, I'm still HOT blooded right?*wink*! I just feel like bursting into tears now but too bad Andrew, my crying shoulder isn't with me so I guess I still have to wait till I eventually get back to MLK this Friday to accomplish that..(NOW IN KL)!
PPL just have no idea the pain,hurts,sufferings,frustrations and etc we human go through when we are in LOVE. The thought of the word LOVE will definitely come to many ppl's attention to as why a 19 year old girl like me would use such a strong word to describe her feelings...? I'm still confused as to why I REJECTED HIM coz if this decision was made 1 year ago by the old VERA TAY, it would just seem and look so bizarre but now after coming back from Brazil and being more matuared a girl, I feel that this is just not the time to be serious and to have a relationship eventhough I really like HIM coz now I just have to concentrate on my FORM 6 and nothing else! WE will still be forever best of friends but If HE really does like and love me , I'm sure given a chance, HE will definitely wait for me until the right time comes!

I'm lost in the world of my own!!!

-31/03/2005
-Thursday
-10.29 pm

Time really does fly huh? In a flash, I've been back here in Malaysia for just over 10 days. Can you just believe this? Personally I just can't. I still can remember very well when I was just about to fly off to Brazil to start my Rotary Exchange Programme and now after 1 year everything has just come back to the original way that it used to be, back in old mouldy Melaka and getting to know that most of my friends are up in KL either studying or working *sigh*! Caroline is up there working in Starbucks, Maju Juntion and I dont know when will be the next time I'll be able to see her since she does not come back often but thank goodness for Jeremy who is currently studying at KDU comes back every weekend so at least I still have 1 more Mamak Partner to go out with.Anyway, so far I've gone out with ppl like Suet yin,Carol,Andrew,Jeremy,Sandra and also not forgetting my precious mei mei, Rebekah,the first person that I saw after arriving back here in Mlk. What a life!!!
Last monday, I gave my presentation about Brazil to the Rotary club here and fortunately everything came out well!!! I guess everyone were most fascinated with those very sexy Samba Pics especially of the moving picture!!!

Here are some good examples for you ppl to see!!!
And as for now......just hanging around, going out with friends and just waiting to go into Form 6 which will only start in mid May!!!!

During my happier days back in Brazil.aka Farewell Party....

Carnaval next week...huhu

-Day 314 in Brazil-
-02-02-2005
-Tuesday
-3.04 am

So Carnaval is starting this Friday and everyone is still busy preparing for the Grand event through out the whole country.
I'm so excited as I will be celebrating it in the Carnaval stadium together with all the exchange students and also together with some Rotarians. All the Samba schools in Sao Paulo will be taking part and I'm sure this will be the best thing that will happen before I leave Brazil!!!!
AS I am blogging now,it's already 3.40 am and I'm using the comp in Rodolfo's house in which I'm spending a few days here from last Sunday until today so sad to always leave someone that you really like so much and inside,you know that you don't know when we will ever see them again!!!!Anyway, yeah I'm in Rodolfo's city which is in Juquitiba,SP and so far I've been able to get out from the polluted Guarulhos and get some good and fresh air here in this small city down south of Sao Paulo.Eventhough we didn't do much due to the bad weather which rained every single day here,in which we planned to go river rafting, we somehow managed to visit a mushroom farm owed by 1 of the Rotarians and also did some sight-seeing at the waterfalls in the jungle. Last night,I even went for their monthly Rotary meeting and even presented my Host Rotary Club Banner from Malaysia to the President of the club here in Juquitiba.My stay here is just wicked and I really enjoy Rodolfo's accompany not mentioning that his mother is just an angel!!!!She's like the sweetest women I ever met in my life of course not forgetting my own mother back in Malaysia:)
After Rotary, Rodolfo and I were so bored and we just fooled around his camera and managed to take some very nice pics....First, this i have to say, his Rotary Blazer is just sooooooooo damn cool
.I really envy him so much because while on exchange in Malaysia last year,he was lucky enough to go for the Rotary International convention in Japan and therefore he got so many pins from around the world so put on his Blazer. Well, I must say that my Blazer is rather awesome too.Too bad I don't have a pic here to show to you guys. Time flies and without knowing it,it's time for me to say my goodbyes to all my close friends in Brazil and leave for an even better place in this world call MALAYSIA!!!!!! 6 weeks and thats all you guys have to wait for my return back where I truly belong......

Andrew....Andrew...thanks for always beeing there!!!

-Day 303 in Brazil-
-22-01-2005
-Saturday
-6.12 pm

ERmmm...so I just finished blooging and here I am bloggin again!!!! Why? Because of someone who is bugging me to write more things in my blog........So, since I have nothing to do now, I guess I´ll just write something about a friend of mine call Andrew Liu!WEll, I guess writting down in words about him is rather tough since both of us are actually chatting in MSN now. I´ve known this guy here for like ages,ermm let me see how long?I guess more than 5 years....yeah I guess thats it!!!! We started of as just friends but slowly the friendship blossomed into something so marvellous that everyone thought that we were a couple....*kekekeke* How ridiculous! Anyway, yeah....in February when he had to leave for NS, I was so worried that I´ll never get to see him before I go off to Brazil but guess what? He came out from NS the weekend I was supposed to leave....WEll, I don´t really know if he did come out just to see me off or it was just a coincidence.Andrew, you got to answer this question ok? I don´t know what to say more about him? He has been there for me during hard times and I guess I can´t live without him. He has been my listening ear and my shoulder to cry on and eventhough me being half the globe away from home, that friendship between us is still as strong as before and I guess now it´s even "STRONGER". AS he just told me :You're always "higher class" than the rest of my frends> I guess this has made it clear that we are really close friends and nothing can bring our friendship to an end...right? Andrew? I know I´ve I told you this, but I really like to write it down here. I donno why I got really jealous when I found out that you were together with Sue Ping. I guess sometimes, we are just afraid that we´ll loose a good friend..... But seriously, I´m cool with it now so you don´t have to worry about it anymore ok? I need to go now, but I´ll write more stuff later on....Andrew, I love you and Miss you so much ok.....Big hugs and kisses..

A new year ahead......A new life ahead too!!!!!

-Day 292 in Brazil-
-11-01-2005
-Tuesday
-2.13 pm

As I look back and think of the year 2004.....many good and I consider bad things has happened to me but by the grace of God, somehow I managed to go through the year to a NEW YEAR ahead of me!!!! Well, last year was absolutely a awesome and wonderful year from me if I must say so. Let me just list out what I did :
1)Worked at GSC Mahkota Parade!( Was the best working experience)
2)Andrew and Nara went to NS.....*sob sob*
3)Went to Brazil for my Rotary Youth Exchange Program.
4)Celebrated my birthday in Brazil...It was ok though
5)Went on a Easter Holiday together with my Brazilian family.
6)Went on my trip to the Northeast of Brazil with 45 others exchange students.
7)Got to Know my 4 best friends, Emmãnuel,Kofi,Kate and Claire during the trip
8)Went out with exchange students for a tour round Sao Paulo city and to a dutch
city called Holambra.
9)Went to OCTOBERFEST in Blumenau and Florianópolis in Santa Catarina, Cascavel
and Toledo in Paraná to visit Kofi,Camila and kate.
10)Went for a Rotary Party with other exchange students too.
11)Went to the Airport to welcome Rodolfo back from Malaysia.
12)Went for my sister ,Marina´s University Prom.
13)Went to Amparo for the Farewell Party for all the exchange students who are going
back this month."It was really sad
14)Went to BELO HORIZONTE to visit Emmãnuel and Raphael(ex exchange student to
Malaysia
15)Spend Christmas with my 2nd Brazilian family here in Brazil and guess what? I
received so many presents.
a)Leather purse from my dad
b)A pair of shoes from my mum
c)A hair Straightener from my older sis
d)A Palmeiras,a football club FLAG from my second sis
e)A Palmeiras official Jersey and tower from my bro
16)Spend New year with my Brazilian family at home and it was really nice.

So...that was like a summary of what I basically did last year!!!I´m sure this year will be a even better year for me!Definitely I´ll face challenges but the good part of it is that I´ll learn something out of it.Yeah!!!!

Belo Horizonte here I come...

-Day 265 in Brazil-
-14-12-2004
-Wednesday
-6.20 pm

Huhu.........Finally I´m going to Belo Horizonte to visit Emmãnuel and some of the exchange students who went to Malaysia last year!!!!!!Raphael,rafael,Bernado,Fernanda...Can´t wait to see you guys :)Anyway, the biggest reason that I´m actually going to BH is because of my Good friend,Emmãnuel!!! This dude here has brightened my exchange year here in Brazil and thanks to all his cute and sweet SMS..I made it through until now! Well, actually let me give you guys a brief story on how I met him. It was during the Northeast trip that I went on with some other 44 exchange students that we knew each other. He was bringing along some other short term exchange students from India from BH to visit Brasilia and so being me I started the convo with him and without knowing it he was actually Jeremy´s Good friend while he was in Brazil.Jeremy was an ex exchange student to Brazil last year from Malaysia.What a small world!!! From then onwards, we started to communicate with each other through MSN ,ICQ and also though SMSes.So this is the story of our great friendship.....Weird right our amazing story? Anyway,from tomorrow night until next Tuesday, I won´t have the time to on9 because I´ll be away in BH.So you guys will only see me back on Wednesday ok......I love everyone!!!!

Make A Joyful Noise / I Will Not Be Silent
David Crowder, Terry Butler

Key:G
Verse:
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
Bm D E Bm D E
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth


PreChorus:
C9 G/B C
The flowers of the field are crying to be heard
C9 Dsus G/B D
The trees of the forest are singing
C9 G/B C
And all of the mountains with one voice
C9 G/B D C G/B C Amsus
Are joining the chorus of this world
C9
Oh, yeah
G/B
Oh, yeah


Chorus:
G D/F#
And I will not be silent, no
Em7 C9 G
And I will not be quiet anymore
C9 D/F# Em
Running through the forest Dive into the lake
C9 G
Bare feet on beaches white
C9 D/F#
Standing on the canyon
Em C9
Painted hills around And the wind against my skin
G D/F#
Every ocean, every sea Every river, every stream
Em7 C
Every mountain, every tree Every blade of grass will sing


Chorus 2:
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
G D Em7 C9
Make a joyful noise to the Lord all the earth
(repeat)


I really wanna thank Kofi and Kunyalala for sharing great Christian woshrip songs with me....You guys have changed my life!!!*Blessed be the Lord*....Remember he rulesss and rockssss foreva....
Ps://Andrew, I really want you to teach me how to play this song when I go home..The chords and lyrics are all here...Take care!

I´m ready to go home!!!!!

-Day 263 in Brazil-
-13-12-2004
-Monday
-3.56 pm

I´ve been going out for the last 4 days in a row and I´m just so drained.......Went out with my host family last Wednesday and Thursday for Christams shopping and last Friday went Christmas shopping with another exchange student from Indonesia, Esti to 25 March. Esti stayed a night in my house on Friday and we were busy wrapping Christams presents from the Secret friend,a game that we were supposed to play on Saturday, A Christams Party and farewell party for exchange Students who came this January that was organized by ROTEX!
Basically, I´m still feeling the jinx from the Farewell Party last Saturday! The whole event was so Emo and everyone was crying during the speech the each of us had to give.*Sigh*! But somehow suddenly at that moment, I felt that I am ready to go home! Anyway, yeah....Finally I´m ready to leave all my good friends and family here and go home to my friends and family back there and to go back to my normal life!!!
Pai,mãe,irmã,irmão...amigos...EU TE AMO!!!!!

Thank you Kofi....................

-Day 259 in Brazil-
-09-12-2004
-Thursday
-11.32 am

Third Day
Love Song

I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain, but I walked the hill of Calvary
Just to be with you I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you I'd give everything
Oh I'd give my life away
And I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
All of those dream are empty motion
It has never been done
Well I've never swam the deepest ocean, but I've walked upon the raging sea
Just to be with you I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you I would give everything
I would give my life away
And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again
Just to be with you I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you I gave everything
Yes I gave my life away
I gave my life away
Just to be with you

ps://Andrew, I´m not sure if you know Third Day but I´m sure you must have...Anyway, their songs rocksssss too..Especially this is here...*hugssss and kisses*

We are totally Words Apart!!!!!!

-Day 254 in Brazil-
-04-12-2004
-Saturday
-3.05 pm

Jars of Clay
Worlds Apart
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

[Additional lyrics:]

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

-Vera Tay-

I´m tired, I´m sick, I´m fedup!!!!!!

-Day 252 in Brazil-
-2-12-2004
-Thursday
-4.50 pm

I have been so lazy with my blogging these days that someone..ermmm*hinting* who ar? had to put pressure on me just to blog today!!!!Well, I guess they just miss me..Don´t you Andrew?kekekekkek!!!Ok..Basically, from the last update, what did I do? I can´t even remember..that´s bad!!!I guess I just lazed around at home,eat ,do nothing and grow fat...hauhauauihahaia, Doesn´t this sound like Garfield? Oh, have you guys watch the Galfield film? It´s totally hilarious and funny.I guess those that hasn´t watched it, better go now...I bet you guys will laugh till you drop!!!kekekekekke..Oh ya, where was I? So, let me see? I went out with Rodolfo(Brazilian boy who just came back on a 1 year YEP in Malaysia)for the whole day yesterday. We went to Bienal(it´s the biggest Art exebition in Brazil) but after a while Rodolfo was like "Let´s go to some other place to talk, it seems that we are in this place but we are actually not looking at anything"!! He just came back from Malaysia last Thursday and we have lotsssssssss of things to talk about(i.e), his experiences in Malaysia and mine in Brazil,his travels in Malaysia and lots more!!! Actually,when I was still in Malaysia, he came to Melaka for a visit and he stayed at my place,it was really weird at that time because he couldn´t speak English and I couln´t speak Portuguese.Time flies and here I am now, in Brazil speaking Portuguese and him speaking fluent English and BM!!!! So, there we were at this Shopping place call Shopping Ibapuera, thinking of going to BURGER KING(The first in Brazil that just recently opened) to eat but as we arrived at the foodcourt, you would never imagine how many people were there and the line was just so longggggggggggggg..So, idea 1) forget about it, let´s go somewhere to eat. We got ourself a sandwich and sat down on a bench and just started to chat about everything under the sky....It was just so good! It was around, 2.30 pm, let´s go for a movie? Why not? ok....so, we went to watch Captain Sky and the World, which to me was the biggest fiction ever in history!!!It´s actually a movie based on a cartoon book! Later, we went to some place for a drink and Guess what? Both of us found something very interesting...AÇAI!! I guess Malaysian will never know what´s that.It´s a Brazilian fruit made into a dessert. We usually eat it with bananas and Granolas.I guess In Rodolfo´s case he misses it so much after a year and for me basically I have never eaten it so it was a new adventure for me! Not soon later, it was slowly getting dark, I still didn´t have the feeling to go home, so we just walked and talked, and walked to no destination along Paulista Avenue( The Wall Street of Brazil)until can you imagined that we walked as far as 4 metro stops.At 8 pm, it was literally jet black and we decided that it was time to go home...I went my way to catch the metro back and he took a bus to his University!!!The day was great and I guess it was perfect!!!!
My recent ups and downs:::::::::::::::::::::
18/11/2004>>>>>>>> A party to celebrate the Proclamation of the Republic of Brazil
The Rotary Club Of Sumaré
20/11/2004>>>>>>>>>I visited the Malaysian Trade Center at Paulista Avenue
21/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Football game at Morumbi Stadium(São Paulo vs Juventudes)
23/11/2004>>>>>>>>>My first Presentation about Malaysia at The Rotary Club
24/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Went to the Airport to receive Rodolfo back from Malaysia
25/11/2004>>>>>>>>>Went for my host sister,Marina´s prom!!!
01/12/2004>>>>>>>>>Went out with Rodolfo going round town, basically to everywhere

Today, I received an email from AirFrance about my flight scedules Back to Malaysia*sigh*!!!!! I´ll be leaving Brazil on the 9th March 2005 and from today onwards it´s only about another 3 months....I don´t wanna go back but what can I do? Anyway, Christmas is coming and the Christmas mood is everywhere around Brazil....Including my house>>>>>>Note: The Chritsmas Tree was put up even before November!!!!!!
Anyway, to end this blog, I´ll like to wish all the following people here a very very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and may all your dreams come true:
1)My family=Dad,mum,bro and sis
2)Andrew and AAron Liu
3)Sandra Sim
4)Rebekah Tan
4)Joanne Ang
5)Justin Tan
6)Mr and Mrs. Jason Teh
7)Caroline Chan
8)Cherzzz
9)Emmãnuel Campos
10)Camila Gnoato
11)Gabriella
12)Rodolfo Ismael
13)Kofi Zwana
14)Kate my mate
15)Claire
& All my good friends in Malaysia,in Brazil and all the Gatewayans back in Melaka,Malaysia and last but not least,to all the Rotary Exchange Students in Brazil.

Cascavel.....Kofi and Gang

-Day 229 in Brazil-
-9-11-2004
-Tuesday
-5.10 pm

So...where was I...oh ya, just after Florianópolis!!!! Jana had to go back to São Paulo as she was supposed to go for the Pantanal trip so I went to Cascavel alone!!!While on the bus trip, guess who I was sitting beside? It was an English Boy!!!I couldn´t believed it but it was true...He was traveling around Brazil alone for 6 weeks and he was heading for the Falls!!!What a coincidence!!!Anyway, I stayed in Cascavel for a week and the first day when I arrived, I decided to give Kofi and Kate a surprise!! I called Kofi and he just couldn´t believed that I was in town!!! All I could here in the background...shouts of Excitement I guess...Kofi and kate were shouting like the world could fall down anytime!!!I guess I´m special somewhere inside them *cheeky smile*...I went for Kofi´s band practices, his school,getting to know all his goody friends and even went round town sight seeing with him and Gang!!!!I was staying at Camila´s place(she went to Malaysia last year) and we had so much fun.I went to Uni with her and even hung out together with her friends!!!I just couldn´t believe that finally I was meeting the famous Camila from Cascavel! She was so famous back than In Malaysia as she was a very nice,sweet,wonderful,respecful,kind exchange student from Brazil to Malaysia!!Even my dad and the YEP coordinator have said that she is a very polite student*wink*! I also had a great opportunity meeting the other Malaysian girl,Paramesvari who is from another city,Fransisco Beltrão near Cascavel!!!I was just so contented with life at that moment but wait a minute...No one in this world is ever contented with life? "Weird hei?".....She came down from her city just to meet up with me after hearing so much about the other famous Malaysian girl living in São Paulo *wink*..lol!We decided it was time to show our culture to Camila´s parents by cooking our famous "Curry Chicken"!! "Yum Yum....it was just delicious!!!Just miss Malaysian food so much!!!Fortunately,Camila brought home some Baba´s curry powder so this really made our cooking so much easier *wink*! So, Sunday came and I had to leave Cascavel....*sob sob*!!!But anyway, I was going to Toledo, the city where Rafael comes from..He is currently in Malaysia under a 1 year exchange too!!His family was just awesome especially Moiz(exchange student from India)who is staying at their house...I stayed at their place for 2 days and during those time...Moiz brought Paramesvari and I out to town for sigh-seeing and shopping of course!!!Prices down south are just so CHEAP...this word is very important to gurls you know? Besides, I went for a Rotary meeting there and met 4 other exchange students!!!I guess it was time to leave for São Paulo...I was reluctant and tried to extend my stay but...you know? I had to leave no matter what *sob sob*
So, this is the end of my South trip and I really had a wonderful time.....
Love you guys so much......

OCTOBERFEST...."PERFECT"!!!!!

-Day 221 in Brazil-
-1-11-2004
-Monday
-6.01 pm

So, I´m finally back in freaking São Paulo after coming back from Blumenau-OCTOBERFEST and from the south of Brazil...What should I say about the trip? It was wonderful,awesome,great,marvelous,excellent and etc.....To be honest, in non other words, the trip was just "PERFECT"! The first city that Jana from Botswana and I headed was of course non other than the famous OCTOBERFEST in Blumenau...Actually, do you ppl out there know exactly was it OCTOBERFEST? Answer me ppl....do you guys really know? Seems like no one is answering me so I guess I better explain it! It is actually a German drinking festival originated from Germany and I bet you ppl are wondering what´s a German festival doing in the middle of no where in freaking Brazil? Many years ago(donno how many), but anyway, the south of Brazil was formally a German, Italian and Dutch colony and Blumenau happened to be a German colony...So, "ahhhhhh" you ppl understand now? OCTOBERFEST in Brazil is the second biggest festival in the world after OCTOBERFEST in Germany and so being there was some sort of a achievement huh!So, where was I? Oh ya....back to Blumenau, Jana and I stayed at the Youth exchange Vice Chairman´s house for 3 days and it was just pure fun and enjoyment!!! German music was just being played everywhere around the city and ppl dressed in traditional German costumes were just happily dancing and singing!
Jana and I did quite a bit of shopping too that we actually found ourselves spending too much money but as you ppl know, OCTOBERFEST is only once a year so I guess it´s quite worth it after all!!! Guess what? We just couldn´t believe this part...We came across a group of British and American students studying at Belo Horizonte who came from São Paulo to Blumenau with us on the same bus and we met up at OCTOBERFEST too!!! All of us hung out together and had lots of fun together...isn´t the world so small?
Without realizing it, we were leaving Blumenau and was heading for Florianópolis to visit the Magic Island(named by the Brazilians) and to meet up with Gabi also.OK! This is really scary!!!We were again on the same bus with those freaking British and American students..isn´t this really scary! Gabi was an ex exchange student who went to India last year on a short term exchange program and there she met up with our short team program team from Malaysia too!This world is just too small!!! Well, during our 5 day stay with her, we just went to the beaches to relax, got oursleves all burned and also went for the most crazy band concert of Gabi´s bf!!It was just FUN FUN and nothing but FUN! I also had the opportunity to go to Gabi´s University were she is studying Languages(German and English) and I even bumped into some exchange students from Florianópolis and I was really delighted!
This is just part of my CRAZY AND SCARY trip..I´m really tired of typing now after rewritting for 3 times because my stupid computer keeps on shutting down*argggg* Well, I´ll continue tomorrow ok? Lots of love to everyone and ANDREW.....Thanks alot for always being there for me and also I´ll always cherish those *hugzzz* you promise me ok?
Love.........................VERA

OCTOBER FEST FINALLY!!!!!

-Day 198 in Brazil-
-08-10-2004
-Friday
-4.32 pm

My God....Finally everything is finalized!!!! Now at least I can go to Blumenau and my south tour peacefully!!!! I seriously just dislike(was almost near to saying Hate but...) my counselor(which exchange student doesn´t?)kekekke.Sorry dad, no offence ok?Here the story goes, My friend and I,Jana from Botswana,Afica were planning to travel down south next week but as usual....Under the YEP rules, all exchange students must get authorisation letters from their natural parents, host parents and last but not least the Youth Exchange chairman!!!!! At first, I was seriously thinking of not letting my Chairman know of my travelling plans because I knew complications would occur but as a good exchange student I decided to do it the proper way by getting all the authorisation letters ready!!!! My counsellor was such a job to handle..."You will miss school for at least 2 week", "Where will you be staying?"," I need all the information of all the place you are staying " and etc.....I could have just killed him but I just stayed( pretented) calm infront of him and let out all my anger at home!!!! My Rotary Club President was such a sweetie....he didn´t even object to my travelling plans..instead he was giving me support by telling me to have fun and to enjoy my stay there!!!
People out there always thinks that Youth exchange students lifes are great and wonderful...(of course they are) but not mentioning all the rules and regulations set by Rotary..*sigh* No comments!!! So, What do you all think? Just to go for 14 days to the south ,I needed to go through such a job just to let my counsellor approve of it!!! ------------------

LIFE´S A ROLLER COASTER!!!!!

-Day 195 in Brazil-
-05-10-2004
-Tuesday
-5.11 pm



TAKE ME AWAY --AVRIL LAVIGNE
I cannot find find a way to describe it
It´s there inside
All I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do
You do if you knew
What would you do

*Chorus
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can´t handle this confusion
I´m unable come and take me away

I feel like I´m all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don´t want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don´t think you´d understand
´Cause no one understands

*Chorus
I´m going nowhere on and on and
I´m getting nowhere on and on and on
I´m going nowhere on and on and off
and on and off and on

Take me away
Break me away
Take me away

Life sometimes can be sickening!!!!!............*No comments*

Avril Lavinge Rawksssssss!!!!!

-Day 193 in Brazil-
-03-10-2004
-Sunday
-6.34 pm




FINALLY!!!!! Today, I got my hands on my favourite artist´s CD..AVRIL LAVIGNE!*Wink*
I´m so happy coz I found it in Extra supermaket for such a cheap price..Only R$27.90
Besides, I also bought another Cd...The sound track for a Brazilian soap-opera on the Tv every night from 9 pm to 10 pm....It is really good..
GTG now.....host sister got to use the comp now!!!Byebye

***Sorry for those anti Avril lavigne fanss!!! No offence ok?

NORDESTE 2004!!!!!!!!!!!!!*sigh*

-Day 192 in Brazil
-02-10-2004
-Saturday
-11.53 am

Time really flies hei!!! NORDESTE 2004 just ended like 2 months ago but to me it still seems like yesterday!!!I can still vividly remember those freaking moments we had on the trip and I´ll probably keep it at heart till as long I can remember! NORDESTE 2004 was my first Rotary organized trip and will my last too...The rest are too expensive so I decided to go down to the south of Brazil together with a few exchange students and we´ll be making our way to the famous Iguaçu falls...It seems that it is one of the 10 wonders in the world..*TRUE OR FALSE*??? Let me see? I know who to ask!! The MR Know all..Mr.Jimmy Tay!!!! Who´s that? Well...that´s of course my dearest father!!!!!!! Ok guys...I´ll find out from him and let you guys know ASAP ok? set? Saturday!!!!* evil smile* let´s get the Party started.......hahahahaha!Actually,it´s just a very normal saturday,I´ll be going out with my host mother later on and we´ll probably catch a show or as usual...her style!!*SHOPPING*
Ok...fellers! I got to run now....Hope to Blog later

Together with those freaking Aussies...We all had a blasting time on the trip....I really do miss my trip* sad*!
Vera Tay

ERmmm....Trip pictures together with my good friends..Kofi from Zimbabwe,Kate from Australia and who do you think that cute gurl is?
Vera Tay

Love you,Love you and love you!

Love you.....Love you....Love you!!!!
Vera Tay

My sadness,My madness,I´m my own savior!

-Day 190 in Brazil-
-30-09-2004
-Thursday
-4.09 pm


LOST IN TRANSLATION

Thunder storm and lighting strucks,
The clouds suddenly changes from
baby blue to jet black,
Rain starts falling from heaven above
and it gets heavier and heavier....
I´m all alone in the middle of no where,
Trying to find a place to excape,
But all I see is darkness covering me.
I´m stuck, I´m stuck....
This goes on and on in my head
Fear begins to overtake me
Sweat just keeps running down my head
I start to turn round and round
Seeking for help....
I´m lost, I´m lost.....
I donno what to do!!!!
I´m lost in this world of confusion
HELP....HELP....HELP....
*Screamimg*...........arrrrrggggggggggg!!
Written by:
Vera Tay

This is exactly how I felt as I was blogging........Sometimes I just wonder what is it like to live in a world full of pain and suffering???

-Day 188 in Brazil-
-28-09-2004
-Tuesday
-10.27 pm


The city at night.................Just so pretty...especially this dutch looking house turned bar!!!
Vera Tay

My host sister and I took the Teleferico up to the mountain..It was just so fun and scary too...
Vera Tay

A birds eye view from the top of a mountain!!!!Beautiful right?
Vera Tay

A family picture just before getting on the train for a joy ride!!!
Vera Tay

This was in the town...look! The designs of the houses and shops are so Dutch!!!! Fomally Dutch town
Vera Tay

This pic is so funny......just look at my host moms eyes while she is eating!!! Beside is my host sister,Larissa!
Vera Tay

-Day 188 in Brazil-
-28-09-2004
-Tuesday
-8.49 pm

It was just a freaking and awesome weekend in Campos do Jordão!!!!!!! Had so much fun there celebrating my host fathers birthday and I had a whale of a time there........We leave Guarulhos on Saturday at 12.30 pm and arrived there at about 2.30 pm....We had some problems looking for our hotel as my host mother booked it through the Internet!!!!! After going for a free half an hour ride going round and round the city......FINALLY, my mom decided to call the Hotel!!!*Sigh* Ok....found it and we unloaded our stuff and straight away we leave for Lunch.....I was just famished....could even hear the gastric juice churning in my stomach....Anyway, We went to a bem chique restaurante (porch restaurant) and I had Fettucini.....and some rice,meat,fried bananas and of course my can´t forget GUARANA ANTARTICA (typical Brazilian soft drink) with a piece of orange and ice......Delicious Lunch! After Lunch we walked round the city and of course my mom..the first thing she always does best....SHOPPING! *Wink* Walking around the whole day until dark than we got back *Detail......Brazil gets dark at around 6 pm* My host sister and I went for dipped in the rather small but comfortable so called heated indoor swimming pool but actually it was freezing cool! Dinner was marvelous and the food was just satisfying!!!!!* No comments*....As usual, went out with my mom SHPOPPING again...She bought like just 2 pairs of boots that cost about R$700.....My god! I was just so stunned!!
Sunday.....Breakfast went on well and lunch too....After Lunch,we went on a train ride to another city and the whole journey took about 2 hours..to go and to come back.It was just amazing looking at all the beautiful scenery as I told you guys that Campos do Jordão is like Genting highlands In Malaysia and so it is really high up in the mountains and there are lots of greens!!!>>>The train ride ended at about 4 pm and soon after it,My sister and I wanted so much to up to the mountain by the teliferico....so my dad gave us some money and off we went...I never sat on this b4 and it was just so thrilling. By the time we got down it was already almost dark...we rushed back to the hotel to get ready for my host fathers birthday dinner..After getting ready and stuff,my 2 host sisters,my host mother and I went down to the lobby to wait for the birthday boy...We sat there waiting and waiting and finally my host sis decided to go up to the room to checked things out.*Gosh* My host dad was feeling so ill...he was literally lying on the bad speechless...Felt so sad for him but thank God he was almost well the next day.!!!!His birthday dinner was a disaster and for that we just ate Pizzas but I was happy!!!Next day, woke up early and got ready to go back to good old Guarulhos.............Campos Do Jordão never to be seen again by VERA TAY JIN MEI from Malaysia!!!

This is the famous Brazilian actor I was talking ealier on......The Raul guy...I bet everyone was thinking that he was such a cutie! LOL

Together with Freez from Thailand,Camille from Belgium and Me with our colourful and awesome Rotary blazer.

The 12 of us...Exchange students with our flags taking a group picture during the International Peace day parade outside Patio do Colegio...

-Day 184 in Brazil-
-24-09-2004
-Friday
-11.26 am

Can´t believe that I turn 6 month here in Brazil and I just can´t believe that time just flies!!!! I was supposed to confirm my flight back to Malaysia yesterday but *sigh* my counselor forgot to give me the air ticket which he is keeping!!!!Anyway, I´m gonna do it after I blog!!!! I´m so happy because on my way back to Malaysia I´ll be stopping in Paris because my route goes to Paris and I´ll be meeting my Uncle there who is coming over from London. I´ll fly on the 10th March 2005 and reach Paris on the 11th and we´ll spend the weekend In Paris and go to London by the Eurostar train which goes under the English channel .Most probably I´ll spend a week there before I return to Paris to catch my return flight back to Malaysia.....So, ppl,my fans,my friends, my close ones....be prepared to see me back in Malaysia by the 20th or latest 21 March 2005...Can´t wait to see everyone back in Malaysia in one full piece!!!
Last Tuesday( 21 September 2004) , It was International Peace day and 12 of us Exchange students including me went for a Parade in the center of Sao Paulo......It was just awesome! All of us with our different flags from our own country just made the whole event more colourful and cheerful...I even met a famous Brazilian actor (Raul Cortez) who was giving a speech on the stage and all the exchange students just went crazy taking lots of pictures of him!!! He is currently acting in a Brazilian sop-opera which I never fail to watch every night....SENHORA DO DESTINO ......Finally, my ability to understand sop -operas are good enough..so I decided to watch it... It´s just excellent ! Anyway,where was I.....Ooooooo...okok I was until when those freaking students (Including me) all trying to get his pic..and after it was a parade of all different cultures in Brazil from Japan, China, Colombia, Peru,The Jews and etc.... Guess what? After the event...All of us decided to go to 25 de Março......A very popular and cheap place to shop for anything you want....like earrings,clothes,shoes and etc!!! Everyone bought lots of stuff including tons of pins which we found from a store that had all types of pins to hang on our blazer...GREAT! This weekend I am traveling again to Campos do Jordao .....a very posh part of Sao Paulo and the whole family is celebrating my host fathers birthday there....Can´t wait for tomorrow but before tomorrow comes., Afterwards I´ll be going for my host sisters University Party at 4 O´clock and I guess It will be so fun...This month is just full of activities and I hardly spend any weekend at home....There just has to be some kind of party or outing during the weekends...Hai!!!! *TIRING*...............

-Day 177 in Brazil-
-17-09-2004
-Friday
-3.46pm

It´s been a wonderful yet depressing 6 months for me here in Brazil.....On one hand I miss my home so much but on the other hand I don't really feel like going home!!! Isn´t this just strange? I´ve just fallen in love with this awesome country and the my host family just treats me like their very own daughter.. How will be able to leave Brazil in a happy mood:( I still can vividly remember the day when I just arrived...I was thinking to myself ..one year such a long time but without knowing it 6 months has past and the remaining 6 months will soon past very quickly and *wink* I´ll be back home in Malaysia!!!!* SOB SOB*
Ok.......lets talk about something good now....Today,I just found out that there is another Malaysian gurl here in Brazil.!!!!!!!!!!* Happy* but she is staying in another state.We chatted on MSN and *wow* I just couldn´t believed it!!! We planned to meet next month in Falls do Iguaçu.Can´t wait till than...

A group photo of most of the exchange students in Sao Paulo in front of the Municipal theater

Well, Last weekend was just awesome!!!!!!!!! We all had a city tour round the center of Sao Paulo and not only that......I had the greatest opportunity to get to know all the new exchange students that just arrived last month. On Saturday, I went to the cinemas to watch Ferrenheit 11 September together with a bunch of exchange students and it was really great!Eventhough there were 2 Americans and they really hated the show.hahahahhaha.Well,Its normal.George W. Bush supporters!!!!!!!!!!!!

Together with Mu... from Turkey; Emily from USA and I at an Arts museum.
Vera Tay

Ermmmmmmm.....finally my precious Maggi Asam Laksa....
Vera Tay

-Day 169 in Brazil-
-Thursday
-09-09-2004
-4.41 pm

Hey.......its been like ages since I last blogged!!!!!! Internet went down and all because of me...I accidently deleted the Internet connection Icon and I had to *SURVIVE* without Internet for like 2 whole weeks!!!! It was really depressing!!!*Wink* After the terrible 2 weeks.....Finally the guy came to the house last Monday and downloaded the programme to the computer and *TAH DAH*.It´s back....it´s back.......it´s really back!!!!!I think I am really a Internet freak or rather a chatting freak!!!!*LOLZ* ......My bad...INTERNET QUEEN..kekekeke.Sometimes,I wonder.....after taking ages to blog,who really reads it?WHO REALLY READS MY BLOG????To those who are my so called my*PEMINAT SETIA* (FANS) ...like my dad,sis,Gerald,Andrew and Aaron..Thankyou so much for always dropping by! Guess what? I received a parcel from my dad yesterday sending me 30 pins and finally the most awaited MAGGI ASAM LAKSA Instant noodles from MALAYSIA...huhuhuh!!!!!!!My dad is also sending me some MILO ..........Gosh! Its been like 6 months since I last touched Milo and Maggi Asam Laksa!!!!!! It really feels like *Home Sweet Home * now.Thanks Dad....I love you!
Anyway, last Monday was Independence Day of Brazil and I actually wanted to go for the parade but suddenly this year they canceled it in my city and I really felt so disappointed.*Sob Sob*!!!!!! Finally, this Saturday I will be meeting all the new exchange students here in Sao Paulo and we´ll be having a Sao Paulo city tour.....I guess it will be so much fun!!!! I will be also spending a night in Emily´s house( USA)....and It will be a blast getting to hang out with other exchange students!!!!!!!!!!beijossssssssssss.
PS://Gatewayians.........miss you guys so much...*SWITCHFOOT* Rulzzzzzzzzz

hey guys......this is my new hair style!!!!! Isn´t it just awesome and beutiful.....hahahahaha
Vera Tay

Junior.........looks cute right?
Vera Tay

Together with Érika(The gurl going to Malaysia for her 1 year Exchange program) In the Airport just before she leave!!!!
Vera Tay

-Day 154 in Brazil-
-25-08-2004
-Wednesday
-5.56 p.m.

I am really so sorry that I have not been blogging for agessssss now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It´s just that ever since I came back from my Nordeste trip........I have been so BUSY!!!!!As busy as a bee!!!!kekekkekee.I just came back from a 3 day trip to mosquesçu,interior Sao Paulo. It is about 2 hours drive from where I live. The whole purposed I was there was because of ÉRica!!!!!!!!She is going to Malaysia for exchange program and you know the best thing is she is going to Melaka and my dad will be her counselor. Wow!!!!!!That will be a blast when I get back.So,lets continue.....I leave my city on Saturday nite and I only came back yesterday evening.Mogiguaçu was just awesome......I went out with Brittany(Exchange student from USA) and Alexandra(Exchange student from Poland) and we went round the city shopping,drinking Amazonian fruit juices and doing all sorts of crazy stuff.I even attended an Interact meeting and I had to give a talk about Malaysia and my experience as an interactor.....and guess what?Everything in Portuguese....I was *Nervous*!!!!!!!!!!Holding on to Brittany´s hand. :) But It was fine afterall...
Érika was so nice and I believed that she will like it there in Malaysia....Hopefully!!!!Her family especially her mom..........they were awesome ppl!!!!!!!!!Her mom gave me 2 blouses and other Brazilian stuff........It was just so nice of her.
Finally, It was the day for Érika to leave Brazil and so 5 of her friends,including me and her mother went to the airport to see her off.... As usual, normal things that happens in the airport when someone is leaving.It happened the same to me...........She cried,her mother cried,basically everyone cried. But I know for sure I will still see her back in Malaysia next year when I get back.....* Obviously* and it will definitely be a blast *Ya*.So, back in Guarulhos.....a big city,noisy,lots of cars and everyone is just busy working non-stop.......hai!!!!!What to do......life still has to go on and I can´t wait for my next BIG event......*LINKIN PARK CONCERT* on 11th September 2004 in Sao Paulo.Some ppl told me its a bad day because of the 9/11 incident but well who cares.....Its LINKIN PARK man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess my life here in Brazil will become busier than 5 months ago because now its just the beginnning and its the peak!!!!!!!Sometimes I just feel like packing my bag and just fly home but well I just have to relax and enjoy myself here and don´t think too much.Having a bad headache now so I better end it now........Enjoy and tchau.Beijossssssssssss

-Day 146 in Brazil-
-17-08-2004
-Tuesday
-4.27 p.m

Well......I skipped school yesterday because it was my host mothers birthday and the only time she had time to celebrate was in the morning before she went to work and university at night.Guess what? She turned 28 years old yesterday........I gave her 1 of our kelantan batik which she can make into a sarung kebaya......She was so happy!!!!:)So, as usual I wason9 the whole afternoon chatting,writing my Rotary report and of course uploading new pics into my fotolog.Today..........back to school again!!!!!! We were having our monthly test and I was really bored to tears!!!!So,guess what? I ended up writting a Malay poem.My passion for writing poems and songs really keeps me busy in school when I have just nothing to do.Ok!!!!The poem is here,plz enjoy:

Puisi Cinta

Cinta yang aku melalui ni,
bukan mudah tapi amat sukar,
selama ni aku menyimpan dalam hati,
perasaan yang amat menyentuh jiwa ni.
Saya ingin melafazkan cintaku,
tapi sering dihantui perasaan ketakutan.

Apa ketakutannya?
mungkin cintaku tidak dibalas,
perasaan malu bila cinta ditolak.
Oh..............Apakah cinta?
Mengapakah kita harus melalui semua ni?
Kesengsaraan jiwa sering menghantuiku,
Kesakitan di hati bukannya orang tahu.

Tapi di akhir duniaku,
Walaupun apa terjadi padaku,
ia adalah berbaloi,
kerana kamu adalah cahaya hidupku dan,
saya tetap akan mencintai mu untuk selama-lamanya.

By:Vera Tay

Ok......so this was the poem I wrote! What do u ppl think?I know my Malay has deteorated and this was the best I could do.Hope you ppl liked it:))))))

-Day 144 in Brazil-
-13-08-2004
-Friday
-9.34 p.m

I know I have been really slow in updating my blog....Its just that I just shifted to a new family last week and I have been really busy getting used to the new environment....The family comprises of my host parents,2 sisters and a brother........ermmmmmmmm!!!!They are so nice.....Muito legal! My host father is a civil engineer and my host mother and host sister(Larissa) helps him out in the office.My other host sister(Ynaia) is the same age as me and she goes to an engineering university in Sao paulo city.Oh...................My host bro is only 3 years old and he is just so adorable and cute..What more to say :) Anyway, to cut a long story short, everyone treads me like their daughter and sister......In return I call them mãe,pai,irmã and irmão....
So....I know all my fans out there has been asking me about my trip and how was it? It was just awesome,magnificent,fantastic............! It was like a dream come true to me travelling around the northeast of Brazil..All in all we went to 10 cities.Sao paulo-Belo Horizonte-Ouro Preto-Chapada Dimantina-Maceio-Fortaleza-Natal-Recife-Salvador-Porto Seguro and the grand finale Rio de Janeiro!!!!!!!!!Huhu...it was the most beautiful city and the beach was just indescribable.It is really so x10000000000000000 hard to decribe to you guys out there about my trip......Interested? Contact me....hahahahha!!!!!!I am available 24/7 or see my photolog.............I am so excited to meet Erika next week (she is going to Malaysia for YEP) as she is organizing a farewell party and she will be leaving on the 24th of this month.Her mother personally invited me as she also wanted me to meet Erika before she leave because she is going to Melaka,Malaysia......The first Brazilian gurl from Sao Paulo to Melaka..........I just cant wait to see her!Fans.......................plz also see my new fotolog www.fotolog.net/veratay1986 and do drop some comments in there ok?Beijossssssssssssss.....Boa Noite!!!!!!!!!Good night!

-Day 130 in Brazil-
-02-08-2004
-Monday
-10.40 p.m

Finally....I´m back from my Northeast trip!!!!!*Home Sweet home*......I really had a blasting time over there with all the other exchange students!
Never did I think that parting was so painful until the day when we all had to leave...The atmosphere was really filled with emo...and practically everyone including myself was crying.I just could not control myself...Anyway,here I am back in Sao Paulo and to my surprise guess who called?It was Amirul.As soon as I got back from my trip yesterday,I received a phone call from him!!!!!To my biggest surprise he is still here in Brazil and I really can´t believe it....Anyway, we went out today to the mall for lunch and later went shopping for a jacket for myself..I ended up buying a very Beautiful brown winter jacket..thanks to Amirul´s help in choosing for me!I must say that as for a guy he has not bad a taste for womens´clothing....Soon after we leave for Guarulhos centro to look for cap that he was looking for...After walking for ages finally I found one that was just awesome and he just bought it of the shelve just like that!!!Went for a drink at some place that he recommended and we talked so much that I did not realize that it was almost 7 pm already.....It´s still like a dream to me...Amirul still here and meeting him again!!!I´m just too happy...beyond words to describe!!!!
Anyway.....he is going back to Malaysia tomorrow nite and I still have the whole day to spend with him at least....I will write more about my trip tomorrow k?I am kinda sleppy now..Tchau!!!!!Beijosssss

-Day 98 in Brazil-
-01-07-2004
-Thursday
-5.57 p.m

Finally!The winter holidays has arrived.*No school,no school and no school* for 1 whole month...kekekeke!In just another 3 days I will be going for my Northeast Trip with Belo Tours together with all the other exchange students in Brazil.Apart from feeling happy...I´m also very excited about the whole thing.At last I amtravelingg around Brazil together with all my friends and ppl tell me that I will definitely enjoy my time there.I still have not done my packing and I still have tones of things to buy for my trip...I just spend R$150 on just buying more clothes for my trip yesterday..Reallyy *Pok Kai* now.But what to do?1 month there so I really need to buy more pants for my trip...Forgot to add that today I received a package from Amirul.....Really felt so happy.He sent me his name cards, club banner plus a letter.After reading the letter,I know that I am going to miss him alot coz he really brightened me up all this while in Brazil...*Eu estou muito saudade com voce*
Tomorrow going out again with Rio and Ricardo....I´m sick of staying alone at home while everyone is working and usually I will just on9...So I called them just now to arrange something.Rio is going back soon next month so I better take the opportunity to spend more time with him.I´m just afraid when I come back from my trip,I won´t have much time to see him anymore!Looks like all my friends are going back to their respective countries and it will be really sad for us to part...Well as the saying goes "All good things have to always come to an end"!So, we shouldnt get too emotional but just enjoy our 1 year of exchange here and continue to contact each other....Really feeling down and no mood to go on now..So I will just stopped here.Tchau.Beijossssssssssssssssss!

-Day 96 in Brazil-
-29-06-2004
-Tuesday
-6.30 p.m

Nossa!!!!!!I really had a great and wonderful time of my life for the pass 4 days together with Amirul....I think these few days was the happiest time of my life in Brazil!Finally,I know I´m not alone in Brazil,at least there is someone else here with me from Malaysia but the sad thing is he is going back this Sunday.*Sob Sob*!I sent him to the bus station today and I really got emotional when his bus left...Ok!So let me bring you ppl back to last Saturday when we first met.Actually I found out about Amirul through the Internet and finally we decided to meet because he was leaving soon.So,when I went to the bus station to pick him up,I didn´t really know who I was looking for.Well,I have seen his pic but in real life its really different.Anyway,I spotted this guy who looked like him but I wasn´t really sure but I had no choice so I just patted him on the back and he turned..Luckily it was Amirul..if not I will be so shy!kekekekek.
Later that night,we went to a Sukiyaki party together with my host parents and later we spend the whole night talking until about 4.30 a.m. only did we dropped of to sleep and we had to wake up at 7 a.m. the next day to go to Hopi hari with Rio from Indonesia and Ricardo from Ecuador was really crazy and funny...and I was the only gurl there!!!!!During out rides,Rio was really funny coz he is scared of heights and we all had to really persuade him to come with us and the funny thing is after all the rides...he is like "wow!!!!I want to go again!!!Lolz.We Really had a blasting time there at Hopi Hari.The fun we all had wasn´t so much of the rides..but more of the time we all had together.I really enjoyed that day.We literally spend the whole day there.We left Terminal Barra Funda with a bus at around 10 a.m and we only got back at around 10 p.m.After that crazy trip,someone suggested that we all go for a drink somewhere and we all ended up at a roadside store.By the time I got back was almost 12.30 am midnight...because Amirul and I got lost while going home..We missed the bus stop but thank goodness we managed to find our way home!Monday!!!!!Huh,I skipped school coz Amirul was here..He was supposed to go back in the afternoon after going to the bank but he had some problems taking out his money and so he had to stay another day and go to the bank first thing in the morning the next day.I was delighted coz Amirul was staying another day...huhu!So,we decided to go to the cinema and catch a show and we ended up watching Harry Potter 3.*Interesting*.Finally today...skipped school again and Amirul woke me up at about 10.30 p.m. 1)Breakfast 2)Bank 3) Lunch 4)Bus Station....We reached Tiete Bus Station about 1.30 p.m and Amirul bought a 3.30 p.m bus ticket to go back to Pouso Alegre-Minas Gerais.We spend our time by walking around and we stopped by to have a drink at some cafe...The Bus station was really impressive..Just reminds me of KLIA in Malaysia!Jeng...jeng...jeng....*3.30 p.m.* The time has come for Amirul to leave...It was really painful for me to say goodbye to him.I probably will only get to see him in the next 5 years coz next February he will be going to Rome to get his International Bachelor in an International Business school
there.By that time,I´m not even back in Malaysia..So,I dont really know when will I ever get to see him again!!!Anyway,as long we keep in touch I know that our friendship will always be there...Ate Mais!Tchau...beijossssssssssssssssssssssssssss

-Day 91 in Brazil-
-24-06-2004
-Thursday
-5.08 p.m

I´m so excited..........coz I finally spoke to the other exchange student from Malaysia yesterday.Amirul has been here for like 1 year and 2 months and next Wednesday he will be going back.....*Sob sob* Just when I found out that I am not alone, he is going back..*sigh* But the good news is most probably this Saturday he is coming down from Minas Gerais to Guarulhos and he will be spending a night at my place!Great........then the following day we will be going to Hopi Hari(team park) with some other exchange students....I´m sure it will be very fun!!!!!!!!!!!!Just cant wait for this Saturday!
Well.....let me update you ppl out there what happened this week....On Tuesday,I attended the Installation of The Rotary Club of Guarulhos which happens to be my host club also. It was held in the Rotary Foundation building and for the first time it was nicely decorated with flowers and ribbons all over..It was a grand Installation..Even the district gavenor, members from various clubs in Guarulhos and Rotarators attended this function!!!!!The new President is now Rtn. Miguel and during his speech which I did not understand at all...he just couldn´t control his tears...it was really touching.I personally like him alot...he is the most friendly Rotarian around...Well, the other days was as usual...school,school and school! Nothing really much is happening in school except that everybody is busy preparing for the Festa Junina which is this Saturday..My classmates are all busy practicing their dance and of course I would be the most supporting audient...kekekke!Hope to see Amirul and friends this weekend....Tchau & beijosssssssssssssss!

-Day 90 in Brazil
-22-06-2004
-Tuesday
-5.45 p.m



Vera Tay

Some of the exchange students attending the Festa Junina together with Rotex......Really had a blasting time there! Food ,food and nothing else but food..We were really eating like a pig that day..kekekee.Anyway, in a nut shell, the whole party was a great one..Muito legal!!!!!! Beijo...Tchau

Vera Tay

-Day 87 in Brazil-
-19-06-2004
-Saturday
-11.35 p.m

Weekends...........GREAT! But today was different.I had my portuguese test......and as usual,I had to dragged myself out of bed at 8 am.Apart from being nervous and scared I was kinda tired also...slept at only 1.30 am yesterday and with just 6 and a half hours of sleep...I really could have dropped dead!But as soon as I reached the destination..my entire sleepy feeling just faded away...That was because I was so happy to see the rest of the exchange students that I personally have not seen for a long time..As soon we open our mouths...we just could not control it!!!!Finally....it was the moment..jeng jeng jeng!!!!I felt like screaming during the test..*ergggggg*
I found it so hard coz this the first test for me and I just came in March wherelse the rest all came in January.....That means I´m really slow compared to them.But at least my examiner said she was impressed with me coz I can speak so well with just being here lest than 3 months and that I can speak 4 languages...kekekeek!That really made my day!Finally...THE END of the test!!!!!*whosh*
Now,next event on the list....Festa Junina with Rotex..It was more like a farewell party and last gatherings for some of the exchange students who are going back after 1 year here.The party was just fantastic and as usual...there was so much food again....Just had to control myself.*sob sob*.Made many new friends but also had to say many goodbyes to many of the exchange students...Especially to Anouck from Belgium...1 of my good friend.Befor I left, we hugged each other so tight that we did not want to let go of each other..Everybody was felling rather down that evening! Sometimes when a friendship is made..is kinda hard to let go especially a far distance friendship..I hope I won´t take it so hard when I leave for Malaysia next year....Beijou!!!!!

-Day 86 in Brazil
-18-06-2004
-6.55 p.m

Sigh************Finally its Friday!!!!!But still....I can´t enjoy myself!Tomorrow I have a very important Portuguese Test by Rotary and if I fail it..I won´t be able to go for my trip to the Northeast..*Nervous*..Anyway,I know I have studied and so I put the rest to God!!*grinn*Last Tuesday,ermmm...I went for a typical country party...Festa Junina,organized by my Rotary Club.Its a very big event in Brazil..I´m actually still quite blur what izzit all about..only know that its a Festa in June..thats why its call Feista Junina and all the small children will dress up in typical country dresses!Arrrrrrrrr...lost track..*hahah* was talking about the party,the food was like..yamyam..just could´t resist..!As the food was going down my throat.*oh* is as though I could sence that my clothes were getting tighter and tighter..probably not my clothes but "ME".There was BBQ,sweetcorn,sausage but mostly irresistable desserts...which made me temted to try all of them..
This month is like a month of just pure eating....There are just too many feistas around...The thought of it just scares me...!Just so afraid of putting on weight..kekekekekeke. Anyway...gotta get back to my studies....Wish me Luck!!!!

-Day 81 in Brazil-
-13-06-2004
-Sunday
-5.18 p.m

As I was writting this blog....I was listening to the most popular and current released song "The Reason" by Hoobastank.The words there are so meaningful and touching.People out there..if you have not listen to it..go now...WALK,CRAWL,RUN or anyway...just go and listen to it.I bet you all will enjoy and fall in love with it!This weekend was a very special weekend....It was Valentine´s Day in Brazil and well...we could see that everywhere was selling flowers and the valentine´s mood was all over the shopping malls...Love was in the air!!!!
Wow!In a months time I will be having my winter holidays and I will be travelling to the Northeast of Brazil.....can´t wait for it..................................Excitingimarvelousous,excellent,wonderful and all the words you can think of to describe how I feel.We will be going to places like Brasilia,Rio de Janeiro(wonderful beaches),Bahia(fantastic typical music)and many many tourist spots.Anyway....I guess I will have more exciting stories to tell when I come back from my trip..Thats all for today....Tchau...Love you!!Muakssssss

HOOBASTANK LYRICS

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

-Day 79 in Brazil-
-11-06-2004
-Friday
-7.44 p.m

Well....looks like I have been "Lost in Transition" for the past 1 week.Have you guys watch the show..it was played in the plane while on my way here to Brazil..It was a nice show though!I just didn´t have the mood to blog..Vera Vera..did you like the Jota quest concert you went to last week?...This phrase has been buzzing around me for the past 1 week..Anyway,the concert was excellent..the atmosphere was just wonderful..I really had a blasting time there!last Sunday,I went to the cinemas to watch The day after tomorrow.It was a great disappointment coz it was partly because it was in Portuguese and the other part was because it was not what I expected the movie to be!They spend so much money on advertising but it wasn´t that great after all.Lolz!Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday..school,school and more school!Finally,yesterday and today was public holidays...so I could sleep in late and relax...haha!I went to the cinemas again yesterday and we watch a Brazilian movie..its about a famous Brazilian singer who died of AIDS.
Today...a brand new day..Saw collin on9 in IRC and he told me that he got the Daimler Christler scholarship that he applied for..I was so happy and excited for him!I just felt like hugging and congatulating him...but too bad..too far ad..in Brazil lah!I was shock too how did he get the scholarship?well..he saw the advert in the Star newspaper and just applied for it and later sat for the test...Not until today..that he knew he was selected...They called him up and told him to go for his training next week at Shah Alam..It seems that in the whole Malaysia only 22 ppl was selected and I guess Collin was just 1 of the lucky one!After 3 years of mechanical engineering training..then he will be able to work for Daimler Chrysler Malaysia or maybe even be lucky enough to go to Daimler Chrysler Germany..just like How keen,my other lucky friend!
Lives a journey that is kinda hard to predict!We meet...we share..we gain..we cherish..we appreciate den all of a suddent everything seems to be in reverse mode..we loose...we fall..we just have nothing nice in life..don't even know why I will feel this way?I guess this is just part of a journey in life!When I think that all of my friends are leaving and going their separate ways after schooling days...I tend to get quite sad..*Sob Sob*Sometimes in life..if we don't learn how to let go of certain things..we may never know how much we appreciate and cherish it.But..why do we always have to learn things in the hard way??Like a blossomed friendship..we may not see each other in like 10 years or more..but once we see each other..the friendship is still there and will remain there forever..So friends out there....I hope I may see all of you back someday...and our friendship will last and remain forever!Friends4ever!!!Love you guys...Muaskkkkkkkkkkkkk :)

-Day 71 in Brazil-
-03-06-2004
-Thursday
-6.14 p.m.

Woh!Its been like more than a week since I last blog...For the last whole week,I was down with terrible cold and had a bad cough as well!!!Ermmm..it is frezzing here man!!!!Can´t stand it anymore!!!Anyway,last Sunday I went to a BBQ function organized by the Rotary clubs in Guarulhos!!!It was nice!!!What can I say more..Brazilians are famous for their Churrascaria(BBQ)..Just can´t wait for tomorrow coz I and a group of friends from school will be going to a concert in Sao Paulo.This is a famous Brazilian group.."Jota Quest"..This is my first time going to a concert in Brazil thats why I feel so excited about it!!!!
Today I feel very happy coz finally Gerald made up his mind(so hard to convince him)to stop playing CS(counter strike)!!!So many ppl in this world are just addicted to this game...so getting to convince 1 of them to stop...is realy good news..Gerald is a very good friend so..finally he "lam tong",I am also very happy for him loh!!Donno..what to say ad..Tchau!!!!!!Muaskkk

-Day 60 in Brazil-
-23-05-2004
-Sunday
-11.06 p.m

Oh..Well!Today is exactly 2 months since I left malaysia for Brazil.I had a wonderful weekend!Yesterday was my first time going to a disco so I was pretty excited about the whole thing..In the afternoon I went to Democrata Pub again for lunch..Remember I wrote earlier about the pub that serves very good feijoada(a typical Brazilian food)?After that,I went to Cibelle´s house and finally in the night...we went to Blen Blen Black Music Disco with 3 of her other friends and another 2 youth exchange students from Belgium~Anouk and Alexandre.I guess with my kind of features,nobody would ever believe that I am actually already 18...I realized that ppl were like staring at me..Maybe because I am a foreigner or maybe I look to young for my age or even maybe because I am too pretty and cute..Lolz!Later,I ordered a Nova Shin Beer and a glass of mix fruit vodka while Cibelle ordered a kiwi caipirinha(white rum and kiwi=Brazillian typical drink) and a can of beer.I tried her Caipirinha..It tasted terrible ..It was my first time to such places,so I wasn´t really used to it!Anyway,after our drink,we headed off to the dance floor.All in all.It was a night full of experiences.We decided to go home at 4am ,even at this time,it was still considered early.If this was in Malaysia,My dad would have chopped off my head!Hahahahaha!
Today,we only woke up at 12 something.....Oh ya..Alexandre and I slept at Cibelle´s house and we had a wonderful time together...Can´t imagine that we only slept at 5 am the night before and we woke up at 12pm with only 7 hours sleep!So tred man!

-Day 58 in Brazil-
-21-05-2004
-Friday
-12.00 a.m

Crush

What is a crush?Can anyone out there tell me the exact definition for crush?To me...I personally think it is a kind of feeling we have deep down inside us when we like someone.We will find all sorts of ways just to get closer to our crush and chat them up;we will feel extremely happy when their around us and we wish they would be there 24/7;when they feel happy,naturally we will also feel happy for them and when they are sad..we will definitely feel the same way too.Have you ever heard the song Crush by "Mandy Moore"?If you have,then you will understand what I am trying to put across;if you have not,then you really have to go check it out- view the lyrics and understand it.
I myself have also experience all this too.At that point of my life,I was young,immatured,innocent and I thought that i was really deeply in love with all my crushes.But all this was only temporary,slowly the lovey dovey feeling just faded away.
I have always been questioning myself and others what is a crush,like and in love and how do we tell the difference between them?But till now,I still yet to have an answer for it.Nevertheless,I am confident enough to say that as I grow older,I will surely experience it one day and tell the difference for myself.As for now,I just want to enjoy life till the fullnest and not think of anything else but to look forward and achieve my goals and dreams in life.Besides,and to have a deeper walk in my christian faith with the Lord!

Today was a very busy day for me.After school,I had 'Football Practice".It was fun watching the boys and gurls play.I was looking forward to put my foot on the court but did not had a chance to because of some unforeseenn reasons.I am sure that next week I will be able too.After the so called "Football Practice",I had to rush home to take my shower and head to the shopping mall to meet my school friends.We had earlier agreed to play Bowling and this is the second time their inviting me so I had no choice but to obliged.Nevertheless,it was fun!I was quite bad at all the games coz as far I can remember,this is my 3rd or 4th game that I ever played in my whole entire life!But it was the fun and all the laughters that we enjoyed the most.Now,I am so tired out!

Friendship with God is reserved for those who reverence Him.
Psalms 25:14

-Day 57 in Brazil-
-20-05-2004
-Thursday
-6.06 p.m

A Poem To Share

You are who you are for a reason.
You´re part of an intricate plan.
You´re a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God´s special woman or man.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom design with God´s plan in mind,
And they bear the Master´s seal,

No,that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept it hurt you so,
But it was allowed to shape your heart,
So that into his likeness you´d grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You´ve been formed by the Master´s rod,
You are who you are ,beloved,
Because there is a God!

Today I just felt like praying and asking God about my future and I came across this poem in the book that I am currently reading.It is called The Purpose Driven Life by famous christian writter=Rick Warren!I have been thinking of my life and wanting to go to a deeper level in my walk with the Lord!Somehow.....I just push it off my mind..until yesterday night when I was sitting in my room praying..I just felt a very strong feeling inside me...something that I can´t explain!From yesterday onwards..I suddently just felt very excited reading the bible which before I just dread..I guess this time in Brazil is a time of healing and recovering like what my youth leader said when she was praying for me before I came here.She said that she sence this is a word from the Lord...

Draw close to God,and God will draw close to you
James 4:8

-Day 53 in Brazil-
-16-05-2004
-Sunday
-6 p.m

All bright and sunny!!!!Eventhough the weather was so cold....it was still a fine day.Today I went out again with the Exchage students together with the ROTEX to Parque Ibirapuera.There were about 10 of us...They were from Switzerland,Mexico,Ecuador,Australia,Turkey,Belgium,Denmark,Finland and of course Malaysia.......:)We were all there at 10 a.m and we had a stroll around the park...enjoying our presents together..talking and laughing..I got to know more people like Olivia from Switzerland,Katie from Australia,Camila from Denmark and.....I like Olivia and Camila the most coz they were so friendly and really nice to talk to..Later,we all played football together eventhough I never played football in my whole entire life before...I was fun!We all had lunch on the grass just like a picnic and the girls were all lying on the grass admiring the fine weather..Eventhough we did not do much in the park,I still enjoyed it very much coz I made new friends and that is the whole purpose of this exchange program!

-Day 52 in Brazil-
-15-05-2004
-Saturday
-11 p.m

Finally the weekends has arrived!!!!!Yesterday I went to Santos for the Rotary Conference District 4430.I had to wake up at 5.30 a.m so that I could get to Colegio Rio Branco in Sao Paulo city where the bus would be picking us up on time....Well,I felt quite lonely at first coz I did not know anyone...But later on I got to meet this Indonesian girl,Mexican girl and Japanese boy....They were very friendly people...We exchange our cards and pins so that we could have more pins on our blazer...All in all,the journey took us about 1 and a half hours to get there...The Mendes Convention Center was very big and grand.We all had to go up to the stage to introduce ourselves one by one and later we sang a song...There was about 15 of us from Disrtrict 4430.
After lunch,we went up to a hill so that we could have a birds eye view of the beach....It was fantastic!The scenery from up there was just words beyond description!Not long after,it began to rain!!!This was terrible coz it spoiled our City tour around Santos..so we ended up in a Fish Museum "admiring" fishes..Well,it assn´t that bad after all!!The Rotarian then decided to bring us to the port to go on board a cargo ship that is owned by a voluntary organization named "Green Peace".The main purpose of this organization is to fight illegal cargo ships that are bringing transgenic soil in to Brazil...Currently there are 3 ships around the world..Brazil,Australia and Argentina.Okok!!!!!Then finally returning home.In a nutshell,I had so much fun that I wished that the day did not end!

-Day 48 in Brazil-
-11-05-2004
-Tuesday
-6.10 p.m

As usually,today I had to dragged myself out of bed to get ready for school..lolz!Well,nothing really happened at school except that my friend told me he wants to apply for the Rotary Youth Exchange Program(probably got inspired by me)hahahaha..I got so sleepy at the end of the period that when the school bell rang,I immediately rush out of the class and headed towards home to my precious COMPUTER!!!!
At 4.45 p.m I had to get ready to head back towards school coz I had to attend Laboratory for Physics classes.Now,I am back here on9ing again coz I miss my friends so much...this is the only place I can find them....Tchau!!

-Day 47 in Brazil-
-10-05-2004
-Monday
-7.11 p.m.

A brand new day....for the week..Its Monday and I really feel so lazy to wake up at 6.30 a.m. to go to school.But what I can I say...I am force to go!!!Today,in class I felt so bored and tired not because I had not enought sleep but because I didn´t understand what the teachers were teaching.Anyway,I had extra classes after school for Spanish and portuguese today and I had to go eventhough I don´t understand anything...Normally during the weekdays nothing much happens except for going to school and on9ing..lolz!

-Day 46 in Brazil-
-09-05-2004
-Sunday
-11.20 p.m.

Today is Mother´s Day!!!!I really miss my mother.."Happy mother´s Day ma!!Anyway,I woke up at 12 p.m this afternoon(shy man wake up so late)lolz...I gave my host mother the tea cup set that I bought and wished her Happy Mother´s day!!Today,we went to my host parents relatives house for lunch and celebrated Mother´s day there.The house was well designed and had many nice pieces of furnitures and not forgeting the lovely swimming pool.The food was so good that I couldn´t resist myself from taking a second round..Roast duck,Roast chicken,Grilled fish,Spagetti,Salad and delicious desserts were some of the food that was served today..After lunch..we all had a Karaoke sesion which my host sister lead everyone to it since she has a wonderful voice.In a nutshell,we all had a wonderful time over there.
For dinner,my host sister,David and I went to Mc´ Donalds to have some burgers since everyone was so exhausted to cook dinner..And now I am here writting my blog as usual and is cracking my head as what to write!!!!!Sometimes as I am writting my blog...My good old memories of Melaka begins to bring me back there and starts to make me miss all my good friends and people that are dear to me!!!I really miss Malaysia and melaka.See you soon Next March.

-Day 45 in Brazil-
-08-05-2004
-Saturday
-11.12 p.m.

Ha..ha..well,I didn´t really sleep well after 4 a.m. after I received a sms from my friend,Gerald from Malaysia.I was thinking to myself which mad person would sms me in the middle of the night but it turn out to be my friend from Malaysia,so never mind.Anyway,I woke up at 10 a.m.,did some housework and ate my breakfast.Ok!people you really got to hear this,this is the most exciting part,today my host family brought me to a Typical Brazilian pub,Democrata for lunch and guess what? the place was just amazing..The atmosphere was so nice..a live band was playing and singing Typical Brazilian music,(Samba and Pajode) and people were just dancing and shaking their body as if a party was going on..Well,even if there was no party,Brazilians are always partying 24/7.I can´t really describe the scene to you,you just need to be here to experience it for yourself!The owner of the pub,designed it as if you were sitting by the road side and houses beside you and people dancing freely.Get what I mean?The food was excellent also..It was a eat all you can concept for only R$17 and we had "Feijoada", a typical Brazilian dish which is cook with different parts of the pig,rice,"salada",fried bananas,fried manjoaca and other local cuisines.
It was already 4 p.m. when we finished lunch and so we decided to go to Picasso´s exhibition that was being held at Oca,Parque do Ibirapuera.Picasso´s paintings were just amazing and there were so many of them shipped all the way from Museu Picasso,Paris for the exhibition.I bought a T-shirt and post card as a souvenir to bring back as well.All in all,we spend about 3 hours there just gazing at the lovely paintings.I also bought a tea cup set for my host mother since tomorrow is "Mother´s Day".Tonight,we had CHINESE FOOD!Heard that,CHINESE FOOD!I had Chop sui and Sping roll.Finally!It was really tasty...Didn´t know that chinese food in Brazil also tested that well?Anyway,I think I have written enought for the day.Better stop now...Tchau!!